Is This Too Much To Ask For???

My brains is so funny cause it sees me in worlds not real, but struggles to acknowledge me in this one.

The thought of being so close to him in comparison to the whole world, but still never even getting close to him destroys me. He is all I want, I even yearn for the pain that would come with knowing him better, even for cutting myself because Id be constantly reminded he will never feel the same or when he interacts with other girls.

The desire my mind has for him is insane, I yearn for him even when I know he is not that great, that I would only get hurt the closer I get. But my desire only feels to be growing, its suffocating and it drives me mad that I can't do anything about it.

I wish the universe would just bring us together somehow, it wouldn't be that hard, but it's just something I can't orchestrate on my own. I plead for it to do so when seeing lucky times, hoping it would hear.

He was sitting next to her again. I want to destroy her, but at the same time I want to become besties with her to manipulate her to make him hate her, but also get information abt him from her.

They're probs dating, I want to tear my own skin off.

Since i was a little girl ive always wanted to throw up blood and die

Does anybody know any simple love spells?

Is it ever your birthday if you don't have to fight tears constantly the night before and probably the day itself.

Not to be delusional. But I've been writing his name in my pad this 2 days. Yesterday we didn't cross paths, but today we did and he actually looked at me. He didn't just glaze his gaze over me, he took proper looks. Never happened before hihi

Why can't anyone love me like I love them. Like just matching a fraction of my obsession would be more than enough.

I’m at an awkward stage now where my body begs me to rot in bed, but I know better.

Still, I’ve been at that awkward stage for years now, and I know better.

I should shower, I should eat, I should become active, take my vitamins, take care of myself, because I know better.

So why is it that I know better, but don’t do any of that?

Where can I find a man like that lol??

Many hours