Just Had My First Cognitive Psychology Test. Now I'll Go And Buy Myself A Treat. And By A Treat I Mean

If he ain't like this I don't want him /hj

Treat me like your toy, I’m made solely for your pleasure, be so very selfish with me, be greedy, be greedy, be so very greedy.

Purged for the first time in a very long time. So fucking vile. Can't believe 12/13 year old me would do this multiple times, every day. Girlie was tough asf, current me could never.

I fantasize about possessing you in every way possible, ensuring that no one else ever comes close to you again.

If only I had an obsession who I could actually interact with. Who I could actually talk with, get to know them better, become deeply obsessed with them.

Seeing him makes my head hurt with desire. I don't know why, but I want to bleed on him, tie him to me in way that he can't erase from his mind. I hate that a part of me even wants him to cut me. Him gently caressing the area before, holding my hand with his other hand, whispering sweet and reassuring words whilst quickly wounding me so I could taint him with my blood. After I'd just wanna lay with him, no words would be needed, I'd just wish to admire his skin painted with my blood.

So hard to choose eating well so that my mind could actually focus over starving and romanticizing my misery.

But since I'll binge when I do the latter I'll be fat and disgusting either way.

Saw a girl with the tiniest waist and a butch gf at work today. Idk if I even like girls like that, but have never wanted to be someone so bad in a while.

Just did my first cut of uni. Now I'm gonna play farm frenzy whilst trying to not burst back into tears. Hopefully I'll be stable enough to call my dad back after a few games.

i want someone to be violently obsessed with me. i want my existence to mean the world to someone