Having The Thoughts Again Ughhhhh. I Just Ate Aswell

Actually ended up having an amazing day and will continue to do so. And then an amazing week and month.

Me and my mother went to see the fnaf movie. She is overall very much against horror, but she agreed to go with me for some reason. After I started to rant about my opinion, details and lore about the movie. And then suddenly she told me to stop and got really angry with me. She spit some things at me and told me she felt like she was gonna throw up. I know she just doesn't like horror, but it started something in me.

I rarely talk about things enthusiastically like that because I don't think anything that has to do with me or my interests is something that is worth for other to hear, especially for more than a sentence. It's so silly and stupid, I'm being too sensitive, but her being so angry at me sharing a piece of my real self really hurts.

Just majorly reminded myself how much I hate myself. How everything about me sucks. The way I look, the way I act, the way I think, things I enjoy or don't, my interests, my opinions, the way I view life etc etc. There is just nothing good amount me. And that's so jarring. How can a person be just so worthless, so ridiculously stupid. I wish there was just one thing good thing about me. Even something almost good will be appreciated. I'm so pathetic in a way I pity myself, it's not a empathetic pity, rather a disgusted one lol.

Accidentally hurting your pets is the worst, because you can't even tell them how absolutely sorry you are.

It's Friday night and I'm crying over things that will never change. I can't can't fucking cut myself since my dad is in the room next to me.

I just wish is wasn't myself. I wish I had a different mind, a different body, a different existence. That I didn't exist at all

Crying because of hunger <<<<

What do I have to do to attract a yandere?? Do I have to summon them with a ritual, bring a sacrifice??

Is it ever your birthday if you don't have to fight tears constantly the night before and probably the day itself.

A bot just messaged me, advertising a sketchy dating site. I might have attracted the wrong energy lol

What do I have to do to attract a yandere?? Do I have to summon them with a ritual, bring a sacrifice??

I fantasize about possessing you in every way possible, ensuring that no one else ever comes close to you again.

My mind is so hazy that if I don't see a person for like a day I can almost forget that they exist. I wonder if I went away for a few weeks would I be able to forget my parent enough to forget how much I would hurt them, to defeat the quilt for just a minute and finally be able to kill myself.

I wish they just didn't love me, than I could have been buried for a long time by now.