the cool thing about working with animals is that I have one singular neurotypical colleague (as far as I know). and it’s become super obvious to me that the way autistic people relate to animals is fundamentally different to how allistics relate to animals. and the way people with ADHD relate to animals is fundamentally different to those without.
(only one of my colleagues has Tourette’s and only two of us have OCD, so I don’t think that’s enough to make any grand sweeping statements).
anyway. a real interaction between two of my colleagues today.
ADHD: Maggie won’t stop barking at me. I think she’s upset.
autistic: let me go talk to her. I can fix this.
and that’s not uncommon? my autistic colleagues and I seem to talk to the animals to a much greater extent than anyone else. my ADHD colleagues and I seem to be the best at associating the correct name and breed and dietary requirements to the correct dog, which is weird, because I can’t do the same when it comes to humans.
I know that most people communicate with their animals but… it’s different in a way I can’t quite explain. the communication and connection seems so much deeper… I don’t know, it’s just wonderful. also, the fact that so many ND people work with me… that alone… indicates something.
schizophrenia is not just experiencing positive symptoms (hallucinations and delusions). a lot of schizophrenics are neurodivergent in other ways. this focus on the positive symptoms is a villainious way to gatekeep us from neurodivergent spaces because our positive symptoms are typically portrayed as "scary".
our negative symptoms (flat effect, being withdrawn, avolition and anhedonia) are skewed to portray us as "evil" because we're not "emotive" or "caring" enough. schizospec disorders make everyday activities so hard. basic hygiene isn't a habit, we have little to no motivation to do basic things, the lack of happiness and pleasure can turn into severe depression for some of us and that's why depressive and bipolar schizoaffectives exist. people don't grasp the fact that schizophrenia is a disability.
i've personally experienced a lot of cruelty from other neurodivergent people because there is little to no education on schizospec disorders even within neurodivergent spaces. we're seen as inherently morally reprehensible for our disorder and people are so casually ableist to us. i'm not able to speak up for myself in these spaces because i feel like there is no where else i can go. neurotypicals are cruel to schizophrenics but so are other neurodivergent people. people need to have more care and love for schizophrenics.
yes that includes schizophrenics with little to no empathy, schizophrenics of color, trans schizophrenics, gay schizophrenics, schizophrenic systems, autistic schizophrenics, schizophrenics with adhd, fat schizophrenics, poor schizophrenics, homeless schizophrenics, schizophrenic sex workers, schizophrenics who've experienced abuse, schizophrenics with ocd, schizophrenics with ptsd/cptsd, schizophrenic children and teens, elderly schizophrenics, schizophrenics who are also physically disabled, all schizophrenics.
all schizophrenics deserve love.
friendly reminder:
trauma-born alterhumanity is VALID!
non-shifting alterhumanity is VALID!
neruodivergency-born alterhumanity is VALID!
system-born alterhumanity is VALID!
disabled alterhumans are VALID!
polykins/polytherians are VALID!
monokins/monotherians are VALID!
endels (people who's alterhumanity is caused by clinical zoanthropy/lycanthropy) are VALID!
YOU ARE VALID!
On a purely physical level, I love our jaws. Snakes have incredibly flexible jaws which we use to consume prey that’s too large for the average mouth. I just think that’s neat.
I love that so many of us (changelings) are capable of shapeshifting. I find it a very interesting phenomenon. The ways in which we are (and aren’t) able to blend in with humans is fascinating too.
Physical nonhumans, holotheres, supernaturals and any other physical nonhumans, tell me your favorite thing about your biological species that you might think is underrated by others.
So many aspects of your biology feel so special to the self that others might overlook, especially if your kind is generally underrated. Few think about rabbits and hares with the same sense of importance as a hare or a rabbit itself.
Each creature has its own therocentric beliefs and thoughts, the same way humans are very anthropocentric in their view of the value of humanity. Tell me about what you find beautiful about your kind, regardless of if you're elf, alien, zombie, animal or shifter.
people don’t talk about vocal stimming enough, in my opinion. haha like vocal stimming is the best. i always have to do it alone cause it usually annoys my family, but still i just love to just go and “aaaaaaaaAAAAaaAaAaaAaa” it’s somehow so refreshing
I have bouts where I am semi-verbal. I've seen lots of people talk about how when you become semi/non-verbal, it's painful to talk. I don't experience pain with it though.
When I become less verbal, my lips feel like they're glued together. It's not in a scary way either. It's either in a heavy way, where it feels like it takes a great amount of force to open my mouth and say something, or it's in a peaceful/natural way, where I simply don't feel the need to talk anymore.
Usually, I also become less emotive too. I am usually super expressive, but it becomes like my entire face has been drained of the energy it needs to move as much. Most of the time, I can answer very basic responses such as one word answers, or small phrases that don't require thought (i.e. I don't know)
Sometimes I become semi-verbal when I become too overwhelmed. Other times, I become semi-verbal because I've been alone too long, I'm recharging, I'm deep inside my own head, or I've been hyperfocused on something.
What does it feel like for other people who become semi/non-verbal?
I love that my therapist agrees with me that the point of my treatment is functionality not sanity. Maybe for some there is a need to be sane in order to live how they want, but that is not the case with me.
I don’t need to be compliant to human’s beliefs in order to function and be happy. In fact, pretending I am human and that I think the same way they do is actively harmful for me.
Sanity is a concept made up by humans. They decide when a belief is acceptable, unconventional, or wrong. I would not be considered sane by most people’s standards. That does not make me wrong.
I am inhuman. I am me.