No Because Where Did All These Fictives Come From Did My Brain Give Up On Making Guys

i hate random frequent coming and going sharp joint pain and aches. like i didn’t even do anything this time what are you fucking on??

system protip: if trying to keep track of your switches and fragments feels impossible and is driving you crazy, stop doing it. or at the very least dont put as much weight into making it perfect. you dont need to track every switch, you dont need every fragment logged. sometimes its easier to just exist as a system than drive yourself up the wall trying to micromanage everything about your complex disorder

WAIT.... so you're saying... there are people who don't... experience at least some form of mild pain on a daily basis???

when you try and run around and your body decides it doesn’t need its eyes anymore

Me just trying to have a normal day when the gay men in my head are getting down bad for each other.

Can yall stop for two seconds

Headmate who insists they’re very evil and fucked up, despite being kind and caring

Hello! Saw the ask a DID sys post and though we'd drop by. Personally we're curious- how do you cope with having so many beings in your system?

We're a collective of around 40-something at the moment, and we have reason to believe that our headcount will not stop growing, nor will it ever go down. This has caused some distress since we're not quite sure how that will work, and we already completely lack a clear roster of frequent fronters. We've been curious as to how others cope with "high" headcounts by most standards. (Although I recognize "cope" may not be the correct word, as it implies the high headcount to be a bad thing and not everyone would experience it as such.)

Hey! For us, we also have an unclear frequent fronter list and are frequently blurry. It was similar for us in a case where we would not stop discovering new members- and it still is that case for us. We try and cope with high headcounts by documenting activity from fronters whenever possible, along with adding various personal notes about them that may help us understand them better. We also try and establish their roles so we can better realize when they may be out- although it isn't always easy to find out, especially when a large number of them are unformed fragments. There's not exactly a way to 'cope', I'd say, but especially if there's a need for control, organizing and documenting them down definitely helps you feel more in control of your headcount numbers. Also to say, there's nothing wrong with having a high headcount. It's just a representation of how much your brain wanted and tried to protect you, no matter how much it took, even if its hard and stressful.

plus we had the whole 'sorry future me', followed by the internal fuck you when we did something that might've not been the smart

question 95: do you think there were "signs" of your plurality before you officially discovered it (if that applies to you)? what were they, if you dont mind sharing?

What it feels like waking up dissociated:

–John

nah because someone mustve doubled and passed their mental and physical conditions to me because tell me why i have the whole mcdonalds menu