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Kenma, Kageyama, Akaashi
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Alternate Universe (also known as alternate reality), is commonly abbreviated as AU and it is a descriptor used to characterize fanworks which change one or more elements of the source workâs canon. The term most often refers to fanfiction, but fanart can also depicted the characters in AUs.
Unlike regular fanfiction, which generally remains within the boundaries of the canon set out by the author, alternate universe fiction writers like to explore the possibilities of pivotal changes made to charactersâ history, motivations, or environment.
Alien Invasion AU â In which the story deals with an alien invasion when canonically it does not ever happened.
All Human AU â In which characters who are canonically non-human are now humans, with corresponding changes to their backstories.
Alpha/Beta/Omega AU â Often referred to as A/B/O or even Omegaverse. It is a growing trope of AUs originated in kinkmemes in which characters can be Alphas (dominant males or females), Betas (ordinary working class), or Omegas (submissive males or females).
Android AU â In which the main character or most of the cast are turn into androids that serve different purposes, such as bodyguard, solider, caregiver and so on. In other cases it becomes something similar to Absolute Boyfriend (Zettai Kareshi) where they are mail order androids that can be order online or from a cataloged. If not, they may have originally been human but turn into an android for whatever reason.
Angel/Demon AU â When angels and demons exist (in the case of canons that donât have them) or a character is recast as one of them. However, these kind of AUs donât necessarily have to have both beings in the story as some tend to focus on only one of them.
Arranged Marriage AU â Similar to the Marriage Law AU, only the difference is that not all the characters are required to be married. It is mostly focused on only one pairing and it is usually a pairing that wouldnât normally get together such as crack ships or doomed ships. In some stories it is a plausible idea, but in others it is not.
Bakery AU â When most of the cast of a story works at a bakery while the rest are customers.
BDSM AU â Is when the entire cast is either a dominant or a submissive and BDSM relationships are considered the norm. Be advised that while a healthy BDSM relationship is consensual and not dangerous, if handled incorrectly it can result in abusive behavior which is offensive and considered bad BDSM etiquette.
Bookstore AU â When most of the casts works at a bookstore. If not, usually a few of the characters work there, while the rest of them are customers. Another version is the Library AU, in which one or two of the characters are librarians, while the rest of the cast spend their time looking for particular books.
Business AU â In which the story is set in a building and the characters are employees. Sometimes it is focus on one character who works as a secretary and another character as their boss.Â
Circus AU â In which the story is set in a circus and the characters are circus performers or customers.
Coffee Shop AU â Also known as Barista AU. In most cases, one half of the main pairing is the barista and the other is or becomes their favorite customer; in some stories the whole cast works at a coffee shop.
Crime AU â In which the characters of a story are various type of criminals, such as burglars, bank robbers, gangsters, drug dealers, smugglers, hitman/fixer and so on. This AU focuses on their criminal lives. It is similar to the Mafia AU.
Darkside AU â Is when the canon villain of the story succeeds in their mission and the AU story focuses on the outcome of it.
Desert island AU â Or an uninhabited island AU, in which a character or most of the characters of a story are trapped on a deserted island, usually from being shipwrecked or their plane crashing.
Dystopian AU â Is set in a dystopian society that is not the original setting of the canon.
Fairy Tail AU â In which canon characters are put into situations and/or settings from fairy tales, such as Beauty and the Beast, Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty, Â Little Red Riding Hood, etc.
Fantasy AU â In which the story takes place in a fantasy universe where magic or magical abilities is normal, technology is nonexistent and supernatural creatures exist.
Flower Shop AU â Similar to the Coffee Shop AU and the Bakery AU, but instead the entire cast works in a flower shop. Or one of the characters works there and the rest are customers.
Genderswap AU â In which one or more characters in the story switch binary sexes, such as depicting a male character as a cis woman.
Harem AU â Or Reverse Harem AU is when a story that doesnât contain any polygamous or love triangle relationships turns into one. Usually the main character has something happen to them that attracts the other characters to them, be it from a love potion, experimental perfume, spell gone wrong, and so on.
Haunted House AU â Or Haunted Castle AU, in which a character moves into a new home or castle and doesnât know that it is haunted (usually by a ghost, sometimes a demon or some other type of creature) or they are dared by their friends to spend the night in it.Â
High School/College AU â In which the characters are shown in high school or in college together. They are often done with characters who canonically meet later in life, altering or entirely overwriting their original backstories. Similar to this AU is the Boarding School AU and the Elementary School AU.
Hogwarts AU â In which the characters from other stories are placed into the setting of Harry Potter. These can be coexistent with Harry Potter canon, or ignore it entirely. But they are often portrayed as students of Hogwarts instead of teachers that work there.
Hospital AU â In which the characters of a story are doctors, nurses and patients in a hospital (sometimes it is set in an asylum).Â
Hooker AU â Where one or more of the characters is a sex worker. The more common is the Pretty Woman-type fantasy of a hooker with a heart of gold, rescued from life on the streets by a client. Sex work of all kinds is portrayed: brothels, escorts, street prostitution, âcall-girlsâ as well as strippers and go-go boys. Most of the time one character of the pairing is the hooker and the other the client, though some stories have both characters as prostitutes (sometimes along with other canon characters, in either a brothel-type setting or living on the streets).
Hunger Games AU â In which characters from other stories are competitors in the Hunger Games.
Ice Cream Shop AU â When the casts works at an ice cream shop. Possibly one of the characters owns it, while the rest are employees or customers.
Law Enforcement/Military AU â In which the cast are policeman, federal agents, soldiers, marines or whatnot and the story focuses on their lives.
Mafia AU â In which the characters are in a mafia.
Magic AU â Incorporate magic in stories where there is no magic present in canon.
Marriage Law AU â It spawn from the Marriage Law Challenge in the Harry Potter fandom, in which the premise is to forced marriage between a Muggle-born to a Pure-blood (or Half-Blood) due to a new decree passed by the Ministry of Magic to help preserve the magical population.Â
Master/Slave AU â In which the cast are place in an universe where slavery is an accepted economic and cultural institution. Some stories treat this as a significant moral problem to be resisted and overthrown if possible; others treat slavery as an unchangeable institution.
Merpeople AU â Or also known as Undersea AU, in which a story is set in the ocean and the characters are turned into mermaids and merman. Sometimes itâs focus on only one character that becomes a mermaid or merman and another character that is a human. When itâs the latter the AU usually turns into a Little Mermaid type of story.
Modern AU â In which characters from a historical (or pseudo-historical) canon universe are placed into a modern setting.
Monster AU â In which the characters are changed into non-human creatures, such as Incubus/Succubus or other kinds of monsters.
No Human AU â Also known as Animal AU, is the opposite of All Human AU, in which characters that are canonically human are now non-humans.
Noir Detective AU â In which the characters are put in a typical â40s or â50s film noir environment. Or sometimes as a homage towards the style, in which the characters are still their canon selves, but plot or aesthetics are given a noir slant.
Opposite AU â In which canon personalities and backstories are swapped out with an opposite versions of themselves. Such as a quiet shy character may become loud and outgoing.
Pacific Rim AU â In which the characters are put into the world of Pacific Rim (most often as Jaeger pilots). This AU gained popularity due to the concept of Drift Compatibility that made for excellent shipping interactions.
Pen Pal AU â Is when two characters (who have met in canon) have not met each other in this AU. Sometimes they live in the area and other times they donât live on the same continent. Usually it is their school that sets them up as pen pals. If not, it is because one of the characters writes a letter to the wrong person/wrong address or they accidentally texts the wrong person.
Pirate AU â When the whole cast are pirates and it is focus on shipboard life, usually it is set in early nineteenth-century Europe. Sometimes itâs pirates in outer space.
Prison AU â In which characters meet for the first time in an prison environment where they have to depend on each other.
Private Detective AUÂ â When one of the characters becomes a professional detective while the rest of the cast are their clients or the detectiveâs contacts in the police department (sometimes they work in other fields, in which the Detective character calls them in for favors to help solve difficult cases).
Reincarnation AU â In which stories with historical canon setting have the characters become reincarnated into a modern setting and in doing so they are quite similar to their canon selves.
Reverse AU â Is when the roles (and sometimes backstories) of the characters are swapped, such as the hero is the villain and the villain is the hero.
Rockstar AU â In which the main casts is a popular music band or one of them is a solo artists with many groupies which may consist the rest of the characters.Â
Roommate AU â In which the characters in a fandom are all living together in an apartment or an house. Usually this kind of story is focused on two characters that become roommates.
Royalty AU â Where one or more characters (who canonically arenât) are members of a royal family. This usually goes hand in hand with a historical period, featuring a Medieval AU or Regency AU, although some works are set in Modern times or even the Future.
Single Parent AU â In which a character has a child or becomes a parent in someway and raises them on their own.Â
Soulmates AU â Is when two (or more) characters are fated to be together, sometimes through multiple lives and/or into the afterlife. Sometimes but not always, the pairing might have a characteristic or tell to help them find each other, such as identical or complementary birthmarks, tattoos, scars, or an invisible string that ties to their other half which becomes thicker and shorter the closer they get to them. Some stories only need a character to hear (or just see) their soulmate to know who they are.
Space AU â Where a fandom that is canonically set on Earth becomes set in outer space.
Spy AUÂ â Also known as Secret Agent AU or Espionage AU. The whole cast is turned into spies, sometimes they work for the same organization, government or they operate independently. Other times the AU is focused on only one or two characters that are the spies.
Superpowers AU â In which the characters have superpowers and are either heroes and/or villains.Â
Steampunk AU â In which a story is turned into a futuristic/sci-fi version of a 19th Century, usually Victorian or Edwardian containing clocks, gears, springs, steam power, analog computers, airships, etc.Â
Vampire/Werewolf AU â In which vampires and werewolves exist (in the case of canons that donât have them) or a character is recast as a vampire or werewolf. However, these kind of AUs donât necessarily have to have both species as some tend to focus on only one kind.
Victorian AU â In which characters from a modern or future-set story are relocate to a stereotypical Victorian romanticism era.
Western AU â In which the characters are transplanted into the âOld Westâ; or sometimes, especially in science fiction stories a Space Western equivalent, which may involve a western-type plot without horses and cattle ranches.
Wonderland AU â In which the story and the characters are turned into their own version of âAlice in Wonderlandâ.
Zombie Apocalypse AU â Also know as Zombie AU. In which stories that donât contain an zombie apocalypse have it happen to them.
Note: This isnât a complete list of AUs, but I will keep updating it whenever I come across something new (or someone lets me know what Iâm missing). Also, keep in mind that sometimes an AU story is combine with others elements. For example, instead of the very common story about the characters attending a high school in modern times, it can be a magical school set in an futuristic world.Â
*GIF not mine*
Summary:
Gaz wants you, but the hotel bar you work at has rules; when a bartender calls dibs, all others have to back off. Itâs how the peace is kept, and as the new girl just trying to rack up some savings, youâre not willing to rock the boat.
But Gaz doesnât take kindly to you avoiding him, and heâs never been one to beat around the bush. From confessing his love on the first night you met to shouting your name seven times from across the bar, heâs not letting you off the hook that easy. Not when heâs seen the proof that youâve fallen just as hard for him.
A/N: umm so good news is second part is out as promised. Bad news is....this is not the end. I totally plan on making another part, but I don't know how soon that can be done considering life just began again. Guess we'll see. Enjoy!
Word count: 8193
Part 1
In hindsight, youâre not quite sure when you started falling so hard for the handsome guy from the bar.Â
Yes, okay, there was initial attraction. Kyle was one in a million when it came to that.Â
Then it was the way he looked at you. Like you saying his name and pouring him more scotch made his world spin.Â
Kyle just made it so easy. Too easy.Â
So dang easy that you felt guilty Jeanne was attracted to him too. You tried to convince yourself for a long, long time that he looked at her the same way. At every girl the same way.Â
But that first night turned into the first week, which then turned into the first month.Â
Your poor heart ached each time he slipped through the glass doors, grinned at you in relief.Â
âThank fuck youâre âere, love. Nobody in this bar knows how to pour a scotch better than you.â
And after that first touch, his warm fingers grappling after yours around the glass, you couldnât fight it that easily anymore. Sure, you preferred people sober, but each time Kyle imbibed, he wanted a brush of your fingertips, and you did to.Â
Everything about him screamed hard yet warm. He was bigâspecial-forces big, apparently. And he had these little scars on his cheeks that you dreamt of at night.Â
Where did they come from? Where else was he scarred? Why did a guy like him ever choose war over modeling?
Confounding.Â
Even more confounding was that he liked teasing you, and only you. It was a little trampling over your feelings at first, all that fresh hope and nervousness each time he showered you with attention. But then it was steamrolling, too much all at once that you couldnât think of him without your entire body slipping into a nervous tremble.Â
Worst part was that you didnât even know why he liked you so much. You were just as shitty a bartender as you were a failed medicine-or-anything student. You had nothing too offer him, not your too-big body nor your underwhelming lifestyle.Â
But Jeanne⊠Jeanne was perfect for him. Loved all the stuff he did, hiking and swimming and everything you couldnât do for five minutes without sweating up a storm.Â
And just when itâs been a month and you think youâre so far in the hole for this hot tease of a customer who canât seem to leave you aloneâhot British tease, by the way, because how dare you forget him calling you âdarlingâ with that accentâthat you canât even sleep at night without tossing and turningâŠ
Heâs gone.Â
Kyle just disappears.
The same Kyle who leaves a perfect, Kyleâs-butt shaped butt-print on the dusty corner seat he loved so much.Â
The same Kyle who, on the first night you met, was so damn snockered after seven scotches that he wouldnât stop professing his love for you. (Not that he seemed to remember that the next day, or any day following, but you still hold the memory near and dear to your heart like the masochist you are.)
The same Kyle who stopped smelling like cigarettes after a while. Who once leaned over the bar just to push a little strand of hair behind your ear, rough fingertips pausing at your temple and brushing the skin in a small circle. âJust makinâ sure youâre safe ând soundâ was the short mumble from his lips.Â
Gone.Â
Gave you his phone number before he left, and then hasnât shown up to the bar for the last two weeks.Â
He couldâveâwell, he couldâve told you he was leaving. Warned you. Instead of this cold-turkey bullshit, you could have actually prepared.Â
God. You wished youâd had time to prepare for this guy youâve basically just met leaving you?
Heâs made a mess of you.
Kyle, though⊠heâs Kyle.Â
And two weeks without him has left you with a Kyle-hangover. Youâre all achey and sad and boredâfucking bored. What happened to you being able to occupy yourself with thoughts twenty-four seven and treating men like a distant daydream?
Ironically enough, you miss not missing men just as much as you miss that man.Â
Not for the first time in the last two weeks, you clock off after what has become some of the most miserable shifts of your life, and go home, curl up on your couch, and think about Kyle.Â
You think about that moment where heâd demanded you for your phone, long fingers curling in a âgive it hereâ gesture, so stern you barely recognized him. You huddle deeper into the leather cushions, feeling in your pocket for your phone.Â
Timezones are tricky. Couple that with the fact that you have no idea where he even wound up, and youâre blindly searching through your phone for his contact with both eyes pinched closed, as though youâd be incriminated for the act if you saw yourself do it.
A ringing hums through the air, and you peek just to make sure youâre not being a fool for the second time tonight. Kyle (Hot Guy from the Bar) Garrick slides along your screen, bouncing back and forth so you can catch the entirety of what heâd typed.Â
You can hear him saying it, like itâs tainted with his soft, playful tone.Â
Itâs the same voice telling you to leave a message now, and youâre so stunted by the familiarity of the sound that you donât speak for another few seconds, having to reassure yourself that, no, that wasnât actually him.Â
A voicemail. You could leave that.Â
Like all social interactions, you prefer them with a bit of distance and disconnect anyway, whether that be through phone or several glasses of alcohol.Â
âUmmâ is all you say for a while, staring down at the ticking seconds in your lap.Â
Then âHeyâ and âitâs me.â
After another pause, you realize he probably doesnât know who âmeâ is, really, so you tag on your name.Â
And another âumm.â
âIâm calling becauseâŠâ
You donât know. Honest to God.Â
You donât know why youâre sitting here on your couch, back straight as a pin, anxiously tearing your fingers through your hair and watching your phone screen with eyes so wide someoneâd think itâs going to eat you.Â
âYou know, IâI donât really know why Iâm calling. I mean, you asked me to, and now that Iâm sitting here, doing it, it kinda feels like a mind game or something. You could still pick up, you know. Put me out of my misery.âÂ
You pause.Â
Wait a few seconds.Â
â...But I guess you wonât be doing that. Thatâs great. Um.â You poke your tongue into your cheek, practically seizing up at this point. âI hope your missionâs going well. You know, stopping the⊠the bad guys and all that. And I hope that youâreââ safe. You donât know if anythingâs happened to him. Itâs been two weeks, maybe thatâs why he hasnât called.Â
You think youâre gonna be sick.Â
âYou know, itâd be really shitty if you gave me your phone number just to up and die on some top secret mission to save the world. I think thatâd be pretty rude of you.â
Quiet, again. Still. Youâre not even sure why youâd thought maybe you could hear his response.Â
But heâs the superhero guy, the special soldier on a secret mission that involves killing bad, bad men and even worse organizations.Â
So maybe itâs a little selfish of you to miss him.Â
âBe safe. I mean, Iâm sure you already know to do that, but, you know. Try harder at it, I guess. For me.â
You end the call and fight the urge to throw your phone as far away as possible, and go about your night like Kyle doesnât even exist.Â
This distance thingâll be⊠easy. Maybe.Â
~~~~~~
You call him the next morning. Canât help it.Â
Hearing his voice, even if itâs from the damn voicemail thingy, is soothing. Like a balm over your twinging chest.Â
Leave him a message at the beep. Oh, you plan to.Â
âItâs been,â you glance at your phone, âsix hours since I last called you. I canât sleep, so thatâs gonna be your problem too. I had this dream where I was riding a unicornâand I know you think this is gonna be cute or something, but just give me a secondâand so weâre just galloping along in the forest, all magical like, and then suddenly Iâm surrounded by these guys in SWAT gear and those helmet-binocular deals that you guys wear.â
Youâre picking at your blanket, morning gunk still grimey over your teeth, wondering why your first thought of the new dayâfive a.m., by the way, and you have work until one a.m. tonightâwas to call Kyle (Hot Guy from the Bar) Garrick.
âIt was a bloodbath. My poor unicorn had to stab military men, so Iâm blaming you for giving me a horrific dream like that, Mr. Military Man. Awful rude of you to drag me into the horrors of war like that. And no, you will not be forgiven until you call me back. Goodbye.â
You canât go back to sleep. Not after that. Youâve scarred yourself sending something so mindlessly ridiculous to a man who has legitimate work to doâmight even have one of the most valid jobs on the planet, and you were whining to him about your weeny nightmare.Â
So you spend the rest of your day meaninglessly-choring your way to the beginning of your bartending shift.Â
Jeanne hasnât asked where Kyleâs been. Sheâs got a new target, a rich businessman who mainly operates in the field of pool floaties. Luckily for him, itâs almost July, which means business is lively, and so too is her interest in him.Â
Itâs around that time that you realize Kyle was valid in denying her at every turn, but your guilt is still slow to fade.Â
Then your phone buzzes in your pocket. Â
Kyle.
You whip your finger across the screen, almost dropping the phone in your haste, and read the text.Â
Reread it a couple more times, because you kind of donât understand it.
Itâs not heartfelt by any means. Not Earth-shattering. And you ponder over it for the rest of your shift, glancing at it every few minutes instead of responding, because itâs so short and succinct that you get the sense itâs all he could manage during his mission.Â
All it says is âMore.â
~~~~~~
Calling Kyle becomes a comfort. During breaks, after bad days, sometimes early in the morning when you were too exhausted the night before.Â
You feel like a fool after some time. He never once sends another text or calls back, and this time you really think heâs gone.Â
But thereâs a hole your apartmentâs silence canât quite fill anymore, a quiet where Kyleâs lively chatter used to be at the bar.Â
So you fill it like heâs still there with you.Â
The third voicemail that you leave him begins with âYou never told me your favorite drink.â You spend a half hour rambling about the different drinks you could have made him, how youâre getting better at it in his absenceâyouâll even make him another Mai Tai to prove it, if he promised to come backâand how scotch is horrible. Youâve tried it for the first time, and you donât believe for a second that itâs his preference, even if heâs a hardened soldier trying to wash the pain away.Â
You donât buy it. Heâs an umbrella-drink kind of guy.Â
The fourth is about how youâre rethinking things. So many things, while heâs gone. Youâre rethinking what you want from life, considering going back and giving school the old college try one more time. Youâd had these big dreams before youâd been cowed into submission by doubts and debt. Doctor of⊠well, something. Anything, really. Youâd just always thought doctor looked good in front of your last name.Â
It looks good in front of Garrick, too. Doctor Garrick, that actually sounds pretty cool, andâoh shit, you donât mean it like that. Not like youâd be hisâŠÂ
Anyway.Â
The fifth through twenty-seventh voicemails follow the same pattern. Random thoughts youâve come up with throughout the day combined with ponderings cranky customers have drawn out of you.Â
None of it, youâre certain, is interesting to Kyle at all.Â
Not when heâs on a mission, taking down the evil guys and saving lives. Risking his own in the process.Â
But you canât bring yourself to stop, too caught up in the text he sent you and how blatant heâd been about his interest before he left.Â
No funny business. Just you.Â
Thatâs what heâd wanted.Â
And heâd wanted âmore,â too.Â
Good thing youâre willing to give it to him, highly concentrated and in a large number of doses.Â
Youâre a giver, after all. Maybe he hasnât noticed it yet, but if he needs these calls from you, obnoxious little chats about the mundane side of life, youâll do that for him. Because Kyle is a good guy, and you want that chance, however slim it may be, to prove that he passed on his number for good reason.Â
So you keep calling, let the voicemails stack up and up as weeks go on, continue working behind the scenes of his life, hoping itâs not all in vain.Â
~~~~~~
Gaz lets the phone drop back down to his side on the barracks bunk, smiling like an idiot at the ceiling.Â
Heâd been a tad nervous that youâd stop after a while, sometimes considered breaking Priceâs no phone ruleâhe never would, of course; AQ can track the IPs of outgoing signals, and the last chance heâd had to send you a message was just before moving hideouts.Â
But theyâve been in too deep the past few weeks to let his wants trump the importance of the mission.Â
Plus, youâd obviously understood what âMoreâ had meant. You certainly hadnât given him less, at any point. There was only one three-day hiatus that made him strangle the shoulder straps of his chest gear so hard the fabric cinched and remained wrought.Â
And then youâd called, all apologetic and sniffly because youâd gotten some kind of bug despite it being the middle of summerâwhich was so fucked, in your opinion.Â
Theyâre flying back tomorrow. Through pure luck alone, it was a shorter mission than most, a two-month intel grab that ended with only enemies KIA, but Gaz knew what was coming.Â
Short missions like this meant something big was on the horizon.Â
Which meant that he had to make a decision soon to lock you down or let you go.Â
Not getting to hear your voice during a mission like he did now? It sounds fucking devastating. But asking you to stick around for his flighty lifestyle, spend months mucking about on your own, worrying about him and his lack of contactâit was a lot. Ultimately itâd be your choice, and Gaz is terrified that he canât predict what youâd choose; it feels like defusing a bomb with sweaty fingers, or running out of mags in the middle of the field.Â
Things were out of his hands the second he put his phone number into yours and begged you to stick around.Â
Heâll have to get on his knees this time.
Heâs already asked a fellow soldier, one of the American Marines whoâd been recruited for a building sweep, for a ride to the hotel. By his count, heâll be there around eight in the morning, just early enough to catch you and only you.Â
Gaz isnât quite sure what he plans on doing. Something horribly twee, if past experience is anything to go by. Canât quite get a conscious hold of himself when he sees you.Â
And itâd be bloody fuckinâ embarrassing, the way his nerves buzz just under his skin, if he was this excited for anyone but you.Â
But itâs eleven pm where heâs at and you just left a message bellyaching about his radio silence again. Youâve found a way to make scotch even worse and youâre going to torture him with it next time you see his faceâyou promise. Unless and only unless he messages you in the next five minutes with his favorite drink so you can practice.Â
Itâs terrible and a bit rude, the way you can toy with his feelings through kindness. His little puppet master twisting his heartstrings so tight he can never truly unravel, all with the tenderness of a damn saint.Â
Gaz stares at your name in his phone. He works out the hours, then the minutes and eventually seconds until he gets to see you, and can finally stop fawning over the photo heâd found from your public high schoolâs online yearbook. Heâs pretty sure you donât have that zit anymore, at least, but itâs been too damn long and heâs due a verifiable fact-check.Â
His return canât be too big. Youâre not a pomp-and-circumstance kind of gal, too uncertain of your own worth to ever happily accept flowers and fanfare, even if it was just the two of you.Â
Heâll work you up to things like that. Over months. Years, hopefully. A lifetime, if the universe ever acknowledges the debt it owes him for the shit he puts up with.Â
But for now, he plans for small. Modest and tame.Â
Something to soothe that little prey heart that itches to run each time he flirts too loud and smiles too widely (because for some reason you canât believe you draw it out of him, which, admittedly, preserves his pride a bit).Â
Suddenly, heâs got just the thing.Â
~~~~~~
Eight-fucking-thirty a.m.Â
Who on Godâs green Earth opens a bar at eight-thirty a.m.?
Surely not the hotel director, who youâve only seen once and with pinot staining his white mustache, of all things.Â
Couldnât be one of the many, many bar managers who, thank God for them, only work at night. They couldnât imagine working a bar in the morning, only serving those depressing early birds and the real addicts, haha.Â
Real. Fucking. Funny.Â
Youâre not a morning person. Never have been, never will be.Â
But when Jeanne says these are the hours that nobody else wants, during which almost no customers show up, and implies that youâll pretty much be paid to sit on your ass and do nothing, well⊠by God, you will be there at eight-thirty sharp, bright-eyed and bushy-tailed.Â
Except the only thing thatâs bright is the goddamned sun outside the windowsâtoo brightâand your bushy tail is more of a bushy mane, as you woke up about thirty minutes ago, almost late to serve fucking no one, and didnât bother to tame it with any manner of spray or hairbrush.Â
To be frank, youâre a disaster. You look like you were caught in the Tasmanian Devilâs warpath, and you have the attitude to match.Â
You thunk your bag down on one of the few empty shelves in the barâs storage room and groan, wiping a hand over your face. The only thing that could make you feel better right now would beâŠ
God, you just love to torture yourself, donât you?
Itâs been two months. Kyleâs not going to answer. He hasnât responded to your texts. You donât even know if heâs alive.Â
But you miss him like he is. You miss him like you know heâs on the cusp of returning any second now, and youâre standing at the door, waiting to tear it open and pull him in so close you can smell that cheeky cologne he barely deserves to wear.Â
Woodsy musk and cinnamon. Shameful that you remember it so distinctly. That youâd once wandered into the menâs shampoo aisle in a Walmart to try and figure out the word for the dark, elusive scent that clung to him like a second skin.Â
It wasnât there, which means heâs fancier than your budget can comprehend.Â
Or thatâs just him, and he exuded it so robustly when heâd been here that you can smell it now, drawing you out of the backroom with your phone in hand, thumb hovering over his name.Â
Music is playing, which is confusing because you havenât touched the radio yet. Itâs the slow croon of your guilty pleasure song, the one you love âironically.â The song youâd confided in only one other soul about.Â
âCareless Whisperâ plays with a slow cadence in the furthest reaches of the bar.
It comes from the same place where two brown eyes are sliding over you at a debilitating pace.Â
âFuck meâ falls from those lips, that wicked British accent, as he takes in your hips for a while, then your chest, where your heart pounds so damn hard you think he can see it. Then he watches the little jump in your throat as you swallow, and he wets over his lips before glancing up to yours. Stays there, for a long, long time.Â
Then he meets your eyes, and the stutter in his breath is so damn loud.
Kyle.Â
Your soldier.Â
The man youâve been calling for months, with no response.Â
His face is littered with an array of new wounds, like little scrapes on the apples of his cheeks you get the most bizarre urge to run your tongue over. A split in the smooth skin of his forehead, a paling scar seated in his unshaven jaw.Â
His hairâs a little more clean-cut. Perks of heading out for a mission, maybe.Â
And his long lashes shadow over the yearning look heâs got locked on you, sharpening and honing it like theyâre fibrous whetstone.Â
Youâre a bit breathless as you round the bar, even more so when Kyle jolts toward you. Out of his devilishly tight black tee peeks a strip of white wrapped around his bicep, and one of his thighs is thicker than the other, suffering the same treatment under his jeans. But he makes his way closerâtoo slowlyâand tries to stave off a wince when he gets too excited, takes a step a bit too fast.Â
âBeen waitinâ out here for hours, love,â he murmurs, voice breathy but rough. He holds out a hand, curls his longer fingers over yours so tight they can barely tremble. âYou still got that scotch ready fâme?â
Your mind floats over the joke completely, instead filling you with worries and urges you canât fulfill all at once.Â
Because, God, itâs Kyle. Your Kyle. And heâs looking at you like thatâs all heâs wanted to be.Â
And heâs injured.Â
He tries shrugging off your hand the second you reach for his face, fingertips hovering over the stiffness under his right eye as he mutters a âLove, donât worry about it. âSâbetter than it looks.â
âKyle,â you whisper. His other hand falls to your hip, constricting iron-stiff around the soft flesh.Â
âMânot broken, darling. Promise.â
And, because youâve always wanted to, you cup his cheek, a puff of air bouncing off your lips when he leans into it. Turns towards the pliable skin of your palm, like heâs going to run his lips over it, but pauses when he feels you tense up.Â
Something in his eyes darkens, makes you feel almost ashamed at the nervous reaction, but itâs just so much. Youâve missed him. Youâre not accustomed to this, and itâs starting to dawn on you that this moment, however right and perfect and perfect perfect perfect it feels is still so fast.Â
Two months. You havenât seen him for two months.Â
And now that heâs back, it feels like the two of you have been greeting each other like this forever.Â
How can he make you fall so fast and still have you feeling like youâre pacing yourself?
This canât be right, it canât beâ
âDance with me. Câmon, before that horrible brain of yours blows a fuse about all this.â
âCareless Whisperâ and that dashing smile of his, and all of his touch and proximity gets your mind all fuzzy. A good fuzzy. A quieting fuzzy.Â
Heâs getting too good at this is a thought that tries to stick, but recedes back into the murkiness when Kyle starts to sway.Â
He urges your hips and feet to follow his lead. Itâs far too easy to give in and let him have control, especially as he pulls you in a little closer, rearranges your hands and bodies until the noticeable space becomes the noticeable lack thereof.Â
Youâre tucked into his broad chest, warm and sturdy against you.Â
Heâd placed your hand right over his heart with a meaningful look in his eyes, waited until you felt the frantic thumpthumpthumpthump that leaves your face hot.Â
Kyle was always confident around you. He always seemed to know what he was doing, because he was always obvious about what heâd wanted.Â
But you didnât know that you, of all people, could have this effect on him.Â
That flutter of pulsations under your fingertips.
His head ducking low until his face is nestled into your collarbone.
The arm that swings around behind you until the crook of his elbow is caught in the dip of your waist and his broad palm is flattened against your opposite hip.Â
Itâs a little hard to face this moment, being how you are. It feels beautiful. Too beautiful for someone like you. Youâre chest is so full, heart so quick, head so wondrously empty.Â
You canât think past the back-and-forth scrape of Kyleâs fingers underneath your shirtâs hem.Â
But you feel like apologizing for something. Maybe youâd say sorry for how you feel in his arms, too big surely, despite the way heâs wrangled around you and holding so tight itâd take a solid minute for him to let go. Maybe you should apologize for the stupid song thatâs playing, the one that everybody hates, you guess, even though you love it. Maybe youâre sorry aboutâ
Wait.Â
âYou listened to all those messages?â
Kyle doesnât make a sound. At first, at least.Â
ThenâŠ
âThey were the only things that kept me hanginâ on, love.â Where his lips brush these words into your skin, the nerves underneath throb.Â
A sorry feels cruel on your tongue after that.Â
Kyle hums into the silence, singing along a bit when the song repeats for a third time, then a forth, and your hair sticks to his face as he draws away.Â
He looks like a fool, but a lovesick one more than anything. Itâs dumb and stupid and ridiculous that he has to brush your hair off his face, and even more dumb that he looks like heâs enjoying it so damn much his face is split in two, top and bottom with only pearly whites in between.Â
 A fool for doing all this for you, for wanting you so bad when he could replicate this with anyone, someone much prettier, and have them forever.Â
âI donât even wanna know what that dreadful mind of yours is concocting right now, darling. Donât wanna hear a lick of it, because I know itâd make me so mad, too mad for a moment like this.â
âI donât want to hear it either,â you whisper, letting your gaze fall to where your hand lay, to where Kyleâs heart gives off an indignant thud.Â
The knuckle of his index finger knocks against your chin. âLet me silence it then, yeah?â His head tilts in an innocent way, almost distracting from how quick his heartbeats are now, agitated into a frenzy.
You nod, only partly because youâre a little worried heâll go into cardiac arrest if you donât. Mostly because youâve heard about half of what heâs said by now, the rest of your brain designated to determining what heâs drawing into the curve of your hip. The hard press of his fingers is ruinous to your mental stability.Â
Thatâright thereâhas to be a G. Thatâs the first symbol youâve managed to decode so far.Â
Kyleâs lips are so close when you tilt your head up again, and the intensity of his attention has increased tenfold. You wonder if youâd ever considered this to be the end result of all your phone calls, those nonsensical anecdotes every other twelve hours that youâd felt so guilty about sending. It felt like youâd been wasting his precious time.Â
But his fervid grip on your body has you thinking the complete opposite wayâthat instead, youâve been feeding this needy man before you far too much, a gratuitous enough amount that youâve tracked him back to your house like a wild wolf youâre not really sure how to treat in the confines of your own home.Â
You meant it when you said the distance made it easy.Â
A is the second letter.
You wonder distantly if its shape is now bruised into the fleshy tissue of your side.Â
And you wonder if heâs ever going to kiss you, leaning in so close like that.
~~~~~~
Gaz has to draw the line soon. Heâs gotta find it first, but heâs so damn scared heâs gotten too close without even realizing it.Â
The skin at that little sloping line between your neck and collarbone is all hot and smooth. He almost sunk his teeth into it, wanted to bite you a little and hear that little rabbit squeak of yours before you tore away, flustered.Â
He can barely fight off the urge of giving the same treatment to that trembling lower lip, the fatty one youâve ran your tongue over deliciously quick, like you thought he wouldnât notice.Â
Would it be so bad if you let him worry at it with his own teeth? Let your lips get all puffy and red from his touch, and only his?
But heâs pushing the boundaries too much all over again, and youâre back to shaking. Itâs a good tremble, one he can feel through the muscles of his forearm, the one thatâs flush with your spine. Youâre all excited, and itâs because of him.Â
All good things.Â
But he knows you, knows the martyr that you are. Knows that if he feeds you now, youâll think thatâs the only meal you need and deserve, and youâll tear away from his hold all over again, because you havenât been giving enough. Youâve received too much already; he can see it in your eyes.Â
Gaz walked in here a little too generous after all those phone calls. He thought youâd expect a reward for your diligence, and instead youâre acting like it was a burden. Undue torture for him to draw away like that, in his humble opinion.Â
But fine. He wonât kiss you. Not yet.Â
He pulls back a bit, unraveling his arm around your waist and settling for spelling Garrick into your other hip with a bruising pressure. Itâs high time the other side of your body received the same treatment, anyway.Â
If heâs tasked with quieting your mind, heâll have to do it the less fun way.Â
âSo,â he mumbles, a bit ticked at how the words disturb the air, âcome here often?â
A surprised laugh tears out of your throat, and you tip your head back until the delectable line of your jaw is all he can see.Â
Foul play.Â
Patience. FuckinââGod, patience. He almost forgot.
Almost slipped that fucking leash.Â
âYouâre horrible,â you admonish with a grin, fingers curling up at his left pectoral.Â
âYou love it,â he whispers back. If thereâs any shred of him thatâs lost faith in how you feel for him, itâs the same hand that forces his last name into your hip. It wanders, for a second, up your back, behind your ribs, until he can feel that off-kilter thrumming that matches his own.Â
Feels that stutter at his words.
âLove, huh?â
He tries not to freeze up. If you felt that from him, youâd have a little spike of doubt pierce right into that ever-working brain of yours.Â
Gaz is so pissed he let that word slip, even casually, and scans over your face, trying to read how it landed. You were casual about it, too, but he knows thatâs a touchy subject to push on. Heâs toppling into bad territory. If you pulled away from him nowâŠ
âCheesy shit like that is all I hear at my job.â Garrick Garrick Garrick. Heâs pressing the letters into your spine now. âHonest. Dad jokes every morning. Iâm the last one you have to worry about. Itâs like going on a mission with a comedy club, that crew.â
Your smile eases up a bit, and you relax into the moment again.Â
âYou barely talk about your job.â You look away, seemingly finding the wooden-paneled walls far more interesting. âI didnât know that topic was on the table.â
âThe good parts are. Thatâs all Iâll ever want you to hear about.â
âI didnât know you were so protective.â
Gaz is nipping at the bits to respond to that exactly the way he knows how. Of fucking course I am. Itâs you. But he canât rephrase it in any way that would soothe and not scare you off.Â
So he lets your comment hang in the silence as you sway.
~~~~~~
When Kyle leaves the bar, at first it feels an awful lot like when he left that very first time. A bit disappointing that the hot, crazy drunk guy wonât be entertaining you for the rest of the night. Wonât be screaming I love you sooooo much, miss bartender gal until you clock off.Â
The feeling makes you wistful.
Thenâ
Oh fuckâ
It starts to feel like when he left for his mission. When you didnât know if heâd ever come back, and you just missed him so damn much you couldnât think straight, wanted to hear his voice one more time and not just saying âLeave a message at the beep.â
When you drove yourself crazy thinking about the little touches. When you dreamed about him far too much than was normal. When, more than anything, you wanted him to give in to all those little urges he seemed to hold back from you, that little grimace winding his lips when you swept to close or said something even remotely suggestive.Â
And you know you donât deserve it. Youâre not fit to be the girl of his affections, the one he comes home to each time he returns from a mission and greets with a kiss.Â
But it doesnât stop you from imagining that you could be.Â
Youâd try to repay him for his love each time he comes home by greeting him with his favorite meal and drink. Youâd massage the corded muscles of his arms and back, lead him with a shy smile into the bath set for two, and heâd have that same hungry look as you stripped to join him, splashing water everywhere in effort to tug you over to his end of the tub.Â
Youâd sit on his couch each day, scratching his scalp as you read a book, listening to the soft snores as he napped. Youâd dance with him in the kitchen like you did today, slow sways to a song he liked this time, and then youâd play your favorite again, just to listen to those soft hums of his crooning alongâŠ
Oh God.Â
You want Kyle. So damn bad.
You want his body. You want his hands all over you, eyes raking over your face, legs twisting against yours.Â
You want every little thought running through his mind. You want his attention. You want his laughs, his cries, his silence when heâs protecting you from his memories.Â
You want him shamelessly. Constantly. Perpetually.Â
You want him so bad that you could give two shits whether you deserved him or not.Â
Youâd do everything in your power to earn it. Pour in your love and heart and soul into building something with him.Â
And best of all, you canât bring yourself to regret it.Â
You donât regret the way you call him that night, pleading for him to come over. Itâs three a.m., and his voice is groggy and exhausted over the phone, accent thick as he grumbles, âLove, whatâs wrong? Whatâs happened? Oh, youâre cryinâ, darling, tell me where you are. Iâll be there sooner than possible.â
You relapse so hard that night. The second you saw his face all over again, you knew you couldnât go without him. A Kyle-addict, and you didnât even notice until it was too late.Â
Heâs shouting, yelling at your door like a mad drunk, but you didnât give him any scotch that morning. None of that whiskey sour either, the one he revealed was his favorite, but knew Americans wouldnât get right.Â
You tear open the door. His clothes are in disarray, buttons all wonky. His eyes are wild and wandering over you. His hands are curled tight around your doorway, blood sapping away from his knuckles because heâs holding himself back so hard.Â
You donât care. He shouldnât bother anymore.Â
You make the first jolt toward him, and his face melts into awe.
Kyleâs lips, they taste likeâŠ.
Fuck, you whine a little into his mouth.Â
Like fucking rain. Like a dream. Like clouds and floating untethered.
But also corporeal, grounding. Like plain chapstick and a bit of toothpaste. They taste like fingers winding so deep into your hair and hips pushing at yours until you stumble into your living room. They taste like Kyle blindly kicking the door shut, like him pulling back with a gasp and being aglow with ardent moonlight, like him reading every little emotion on your face and shaking his head, mumbling a âfucking finally.â He tilts your head up a bit higher, swivels your face to the side so your moans bounce off the walls as he drags his tongue along your jawline, down the warm column of your throat. And then you lurch, eyes flying open as he bites into the crux of your neck and shoulder.Â
âKyle!â Your nails dig into his back, drag down and dig in again at the same tempo as his bite-pull-back-bite-again. And he does the same to the rest of your body, every little inch that gradually presents itself when the clothes come off. His lips and teeth wander without bias, but each time you try to speak he drags himself back up to your ear and shushes, soothes your concerns with mindless mutterings along the lines of âJust lemmeâgimme a bit toâfuck, loveâ and âNeed a bit of patience, darling. Iâm tryinâ to play here.â
He controls every second of it. All of it.Â
Like he wouldnât stand for a single mistake. Like he needs you to know itâs worth it.Â
The sun showers over him when heâs trembling, sweating, hovering over you, hands intertwined with yours, peppering your face with kisses despite his rapid chest rising and falling, when he finally collapses against you, around and inside and generally being everything he can to you in this moment. Heâs bigger than the bed, bigger than the apartment, bigger than that bar and your world.Â
Kyleâs smile, still charming and exhausted, is the last thing you see as he coos you to sleep.Â
~~~~~~
Gaz has to bat your hand away from your phone for the seventh time. âJusâ fuckinâ ignore it,â he hisses into your stomach. âBloody fuckinâ thing ruininâ this beautiful morninâ weâre having.â
âItâs two in the afternoon.â
âYeah, what about it?â
Despite your phoneâJeanne calling, apparently, because youâre three hours late to work, and you couldâve at least warned her you were going to be honeymooning off with the newly returned soldier boy (sheâll give you a sick day)âruining the moment, it was still the best awakening heâs had in his adult life.
Maybe even better than birthday chocolate chip pancakes when he was a kid.Â
No. Wait.
Definitely better.
He woke up to a soft caress against his cheek, found himself buried into your chest. Your breasts, as it turns out, are even more beautiful to begin his day with watching than any sunrise.Â
He tore his gaze up higher and found you staring down at him, gentle smile on your lips. Your fingertips were tracing over his scars, thumbing at his lips every now and then.Â
Itâs not right that he hasnât woken up like this before. Part of it makes him think he hasnât really been living until right now, when he canât think past your hot skin and plush thighs nuzzled close to his stomach.Â
âDonât mind this one bit, darling,â heâd said, dropping his head to feather his mouth over your belly button. âCan we stay like this forever?â
Itâs genuine, and he can tell you know he means it because your cheeks turn pink. Surely itâs a lot for you in this moment. Your split-second decision last night was just that, and on his taxi ride over heâd worried himself over how youâd react the next morning.Â
Your brows furrow, and your lips purse real tight while you think.Â
Gazâs trained himself to fear your thinking, but he holds off on distracting you from it now. Plays fair, even though he could be kissing his way down further and further until he could force a promise out of you; a gaspy, whiney one.Â
But that wouldnât do. He needs that rabbit brain of yours that likes to kick out and scurry away to agree with him for once, that yes, you want him to stay. You always will.Â
And before he knows it, youâre cupping both sides of his face, drawing him up onto his forearms, making him crawl up your body until you press one long, hard kiss to his lips before muttering, âYes. Letâs do it.â
Your thumbs swipe under his eyes, no doubt bothered by the dark circles, but the rumble of his voice as he praises you for giving in must tell you heâs gotten plenty of sleep. He made sure he did all of the work last night, had you follow each and every one of his commands to sit, stay, and let him take care of you, for fuckâs sake, or itâll kill him.
All his energy, all that stamina was worked to the bone, and he feels like a puddle of goo against your form. He presses another kiss to your lips before trailing his way back down, nestling into your stomach while informing you that youâd make a damn good pillow every morning.Â
~~~~~~
Youâre certain nothing could ruin this moment.Â
Kyleâs already back to snoring softly, little grumbles against the skin between your breasts, hands starfished at your thigh and lower back. He looks ten years younger curled up against you, the wrinkles of his face smoothed out through thorough exhaustion.Â
Just seven hours ago heâd smiled at you, somehow more doting than the last, his skin dewed with sweat, and collapsed into your hold. Heâd been content to run himself ragged, and now that heâs got you thoroughly trapped underneath his muscled, form, he seems intent on not moving an inch.Â
His wounds still unnerve you. The bandages from yesterday could use a change, damp and wrinkled around his bare thigh and biceps. But from your position, your head leveraged on a pillow, you can see pale, ravaged skin from botched stitches and bullet holes. Uneven gouges and linear scrapes, wounds whose origins would surely pain you to listen toâmost of all because heâd say it with such nonchalance.Â
Itâs hard to turn the sweet Kyle from the bar into this war-broken soldier before you, hard to combine them into one person and have it make complete sense. Like water and oil, the pair of them refuse to mix into one.Â
Youâre running the tip of your middle finger along one particularly horrifying line running diagonally down his nape when he wakes up again. His head lifts, and you let your hand slide with the movement until youâre cupping his cheek and heâs leaning into your hold. A wet kiss cools on the inside of your wrist when Kyle gets close enough.Â
His limbs wrangle even tighter with yours. âWhat time is it now?â
âTwo-thirty.â
His pretty brown eyes are locked on your face, a gentle roaming back and forth in rhythm with the slow strokes of his index finger against your knee.Â
âGood. A few more hours and Iâll have kept you here all day. A personal record, one Iâll flaunt with honor.â
âWeâll have to get up at some point.â
âMaybe Iâll trap you here all week,â he ignores you, all serious consideration now. âIâll have to check my rope supply.â
âYou know, there are easier, less illegal ways to entice me into staying.â
âDonât like riskinâ it with you.â He draws himself up and leans in, and you tilt closer to accept his peppering of kisses over your forehead, across your cheeks, down your jawline. âEach time I try to do it the nice way, you manage to slip away from me. Have to start playinâ for keeps now.â
Youâre not sure if you love Kyle.Â
You know youâre not quite in the same place as he is emotionally. But he certainly knows how to put you on the fast track to get there, and it starts with the way he cradles you closerâalways a little bit closerâand nudges his nose just underneath your ear, releasing a sigh like touching you can make all the horrors, worries, fears slip away. Like youâre a magical woman.Â
You feel like youâre made of magic, anyway.Â
And you donât regret any of the decisions youâve made since calling him last night. Hell, since calling him that first time, when he was thousands of miles away, and all he wanted was more.Â
~~~~~~
Gaz has a bad urge. A terrible one. Bloody fuckinâ day ruiner of an urge that has him peeling away and hiding out in your bathroom for too long after relieving himself.Â
Heâs staring at himself in the mirror while he dries off clean hands, investigating that dark mark youâd sucked into the side of his neck before he could untangle from you.Â
Bad, bad, bad Gaz.Â
Itâs too soon.Â
You donât take âtoo soonsâ very well. Canât handle them.Â
But, well, biased as he is, Gaz thinks he looks more alive than he has in months.Â
And all it was was you, injected into his veins and flowing back to his heart before being properly dispersed throughout the rest of his body, even distribution of needing you every hour of every day until he canât even curl his toes without thoughts of you.Â
No. He really, really shouldnât.
He wonât.
Gaz steps out of your bathroom and fumbles his way through your apartment, following the sounds of humming and beeping.Â
Almost blacks out at what he finds.Â
You, bent over and retrieving a frying pan from your cupboards, rising up until your standing tall, wearing his goddamned shirt. The black cotton hugs your thick figure tight, but itâs too long, caps off somewhere near the tops of your thighs, lace panties barely twinkling at him just underneath
Fuckinâ Christ, bloody Jesus, Hell on aâ
âLove,â he chokes on the word. âDarling. Youâre killinâ me here, bunny.â
Fuck it.Â
Seriouslyâfuck it.Â
Heâs gonna ask. Itâs not too soon. Not for him. Not when it comes to you.Â
You laugh a little. âSorry. I know, I know, itâs too tight. But I was too lazy to find something else, so if you really want it backââ
âNo.â
You pause, smile locked on your face. âOkay then. Good. Glad thatâs settled. Iâll just keep making breakfast then.â
Youâre on your tippy toes now, reaching high to the small pantry above your stove, fingertipping at a box of pancake mix.Â
âCould youâŠ?â
âYeah.â Heâs behind you in a matter of blinks, broad chest brushing your back before you can dart out of the way, even grasping your hip with one hand and passing you the box with the other.Â
You take it from him with a fumbled thank you, the words stuttering their way out of your mouth as he swipes your hair back and behind your ear. âWhatâs on the menu, then, love?â
He can practically feel the current of chills slinking down your spine. He follows you, chest still against your back, step for step as you putter around, finding a whisk, a carton of milk, and⊠a bag of chocolate chips.Â
Fuckinâ hell, donât tell me.
âPancakes. Iâm adding chocolate chips because theyâre my favorite, so donât you dare bitch aboutâwhat, what is it?â
You palm at his forehead in confusion when he buries his face into your shoulder and groans.Â
Fool. Bloody fuckinâ fool, dumbass bastard ruining everything after one goddamn night. Itâs too damn soon. Itâll ruin everything.
âLove, I haftaââ
A cacophony of beeps cut through the air, and your attention slips to the microwave, where a cup sits aglow in the yellow light.Â
âSorry, thatâs for my teaââ
Heâs really doing this.Â
Fuck it.Â
Fuck.Â
It.
âMove in with me.â
~~~~~~
Part 3
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Bakugou Katsuki:
Blood poured from your lip and dribbled down your chin. Your jaw ached and your ribs whined with each of your movements as you pushed open the front door, almost collapsing just as you made it inside.Â
âYN?â Bakugouâs angered voice thundered from the kitchen. âWhere the hell have you been?â
Even speaking was too much effort as your mind fogged, forcing you to slump into the nearest chair. The sofa felt so⊠so soft.Â
Maybe a small nap wouldnât hurt.Â
âYN?â Loud thumps came closer and closer before a blurred form stood in the entryway of the living room. âYN!â
âKatsukiâŠâ You struggled to keep conscious, head lolling to the side every few seconds as Bakugouâs eyes widened.Â
Your state was horrific. Body littered in bruises, he couldnât tell exactly what blood spatters came from where. You looked like you were dead on your feet. âNo, no, no! Who did this?â
His teeth grinded as he struggled to caress your cheek as tenderly as possible. Hot, fiery rage lit up the pit of his stomach, almost travelling to his hands before he stopped himself from exploding just next to your face.Â
âIâmâŠâ you could barely keep your eyes open, â...so tired. I wanna take a nap.â
âNo, YN, stay with me! Youâre gonna be fine!â Crimson eyes were aflame with a worry youâd never seen before mixed in with the normal fury you were used to. âIâll kill whoever did this to you! I swear!â
Bakugou could only watch as you finally gave into exhaustion, head dropping back onto the top of the sofa before your body relaxed completely.Â
Angry. Angry at you for getting into this mess. Angry at the man who thought he could live after doing such a thing. And angry at himself for never trusting his gut and locking you away for good.Â
Pressing a shaky kiss to your cheek, Bakugou rose from his crouch at your side and glanced toward the door. He knew what he had to do.Â
The next day, you were in the hospital being treated for your wounds. Of course, they asked what happened and who did this to you, even daring to flash Bakugou a suspicious look as he stood at your side with a glare.Â
There was no point in looking for the man who hurt you. He was gone. His body--or, rather what remained--was littered around the nearby forest, already being feasted upon by local wildlife. The charred bits of his existence served as a reminder that Bakugou never turned down a fight when it came to you.Â
Because no one touched you and got away with it. No one.
Todoroki Shouto:
He can only watch, shell-shocked, as you stumbled into the house, leg limping and cheek a dark purple.Â
âYN.â In an instant, heâs on his feet, right hand stretching out to soothe your bruise. A sigh leaves you at the feeling of cold on your burning cheek, leaning more into your boyfriendâs hold as he directs you to the couch.Â
After five minutes of him checking every inch of your body for more damage, he finally leaves and returns with a cup of steaming something.Â
âDrink this,â he mumbles, concerned eyes watching your every move as you gulp down the tea.Â
When you set down the mug, he returns his hand to your face, running his fingers over the marking that has finally stopped swelling.Â
Todoroki struggles to meet your gaze as he runs his other hand along your thigh down to your wounded knee. âWho⊠who did this to you?â
âItâs just part of the job, Shouto-â
âNo,â he grits out, setting both hands on your cheeks to keep you facing him. âWho did this to you? Where is he?â
âThe cops already arrested him, Shouto.â You reach a hand up to grasp his wrist, running a thumb along the skin. A smile works its way onto your face. âTrust me, I gave more than I got.â
A muscle twitches in his jaw before he finally nods, pulling away and standing up. âOkay. Fine. Iâll let it go. But please be more careful next time.â
Tension leaves your body at his willingness to give in and the grin on your face grows. âI will. Now whatâs for dinner?â
That night, Todoroki lies on his back and stares at the ceiling, too uneasy to sleep even with you curled into his side. The cops have him. Heâs detained.
But he hurt her.
Somebody hurt the love of his life and got away with it. Not for long.Â
Ever so slowly, he slipped away from your hold and left his pillow in his place, stopping in his tracks just for a second to watch as you hugged the pillow tighter to your chest.Â
Somebody hurt you, YN. Surely you know I canât let him get away with that.Â
Getting into the precinct was easy, but it was even easier to bribe the cops to let him see the arrests of the night. Specifically ones with bruised fists.Â
âSir, we canât just let you-â Todoroki flashed his gaze to the fumbling cop.Â
âHow much?â
âW-what?â
âGive this guy to me,â he nodded toward the criminal cowering in the corner of the cell, âand you could be set for life.â
âSirâŠâ
The deal was made and the cop turned a blind eye as Todoroki walked out with a more-than reluctant criminal in his grasp.Â
âPlease, Iâm sorry! I screwed up! Just take me back! Please!â
The whining never bothered Todoroki; instead, he was annoyed at just how loud it got as soon as his punishment was dealt.Â
It became a question of whether the man died of burns or frostbite--either way, Todoroki knew the man was feast for the fishes as he dropped the charred remains off the bridge and into the river below.Â
When he finally returned home, you didnât even stir once as he showered off the scumbagâs touch and returned to his place in your arms with dripping hair.Â
âShoutoâŠ?â
âShh, go back to sleep, YN.â And you did, ever so safe with Todoroki at your side.Â
Because with him, nobody would dare to hurt you again.Â
Kirishima Eijiro:
The second you walk through the door, Kirishimaâs at your side, ushering you into the bathroom. With a washcloth, he wipes the dirt from your face and neck, stopping every few seconds to stare at the finger-shaped bruises on the skin.Â
You knew it the instant you looked into his eyes. âEijiro⊠donât. You know it wasnât your fault.âÂ
Guilt covered his face like a veil, draping over his entire body until it appeared as though he had let the world down in some way.Â
âI should have been there, YN.â His teeth grit in frustration and his hands ball up into fists. âI should have kept you safe.â
âYou canât be there every second of every day, Eijiro.â You place a hand over his and caress the skin. âI donât blame you for this. It wasnât your fault.â
He shakes his head. âYouâre wrong, YN. I should have been there. Itâs my responsibility to keep you safe.â
Your heart warmed at his declaration. He was always so kind, but sometimes it was a pain that he would take on so much in your stead.Â
âI could have protected youâŠâ
No words you could say could bring him out of this now. All you could do was stay by his side to ensure that you were still alive and safe until he got over his guilt.Â
âLetâs go.â You stood with a small smile, offering a hand to him.
Hesitantly, he accepted the offer and rose to his feet, confusion taking over his features.
âWhat are we doing?â
âLetâs spend the day together, inside. Just the two of us. No distractions. No outside world. Just me and you.â
The thought lit up his face in an instant and before you knew it, you were being lifted into his arms and hauled out to the kitchen. âAll right, but only if you let me do all the work. You just sit and rest.â
That night, Kirishima stroked the skin of your cheek, grinning as you slept so peacefully in his arms. You were safe. You were okay. You were with him.Â
He wanted you like this forever.Â
Forever. That could work. The window just behind your back would need to be locked and blacked out so nobody could see you inside. The doors would need to be chained and bolted with keys only Kirishima had so he could make sure you were in his presence. No leaving without him. No going out without him at your side. Nothing.
You would be safe and in his arms forever. How⊠perfect.
Kirishima hummed blissfully at the thought. If today said anything about how you felt, then surely you would agree to this too.Â
With this plan, you and Kirishima could be by one anotherâs sides forever, safe and in love.Â
Just perfect.
Henlo đ„șđđŒđđŒ. I really love your writing, and I was hoping that I could request a hinata soulmate!au. I really loved the other ones. Thank you so much!
*GIF not mine*
Summary: You had a nervous habit, and to your soulmate, it was a bit cruel. From time to time, you would occasionally tug on your red string of fate. You never really saw the effects⊠at least, not until now. âHinata, are you okay?!â
A/N: Haha, had this one planned out for months but never had the energy to do it. Thanks for giving me that extra push, anon! Itâs a little short, but I hope you like it!
Word count: 1614
        The sound of balls whamming into the ground split through your eardrums.Â
        Wham!
        âNice kill!â
        Heavy breathing accompanied the noise, along with the heavy stench of sweat as you wormed your way to the front of the crowd. From the second-level balcony, you had a full view of the court, the benches, and most importantly, the greatest decoy.Â
        Though his height was nothing to call home about, something had always drawn you to the little ginger bouncing on the tips of his toes right now. Maybe it was the way he faced every challenge head on, or maybe it was the way he would smile after bounding onto the volleyball court. You werenât quite sure, and thatâs exactly what had you fiddling with the ruby string around your dominant pinkie.Â
        âItâs up!â
        It was Karasunoâs first home game. On the other half of the court was a teal and white team, Seijoh-- or⊠maybe it was Aoba Johsai. You never really knew.Â
        All that was for sure was that the group of five or so girls beside you were all cheering for âOikawaâ with squeals like a local pig farm. When you followed their gazes, you werenât really impressed. Sure, he was handsome, but you guessed redheads had always been more your type.Â
        âNice one, Hinata!â At the name, you leaned over the metal railing and peered down on the court, more attentive now than ever. He had just been switched out, replaced with an even shorter male, which⊠you werenât really sure how that was possible.Â
        While watching from the playerâs box, Hinata drank from a water bottle with haste. You had never been more jealous of plastic in your life.Â
        Soon, the whistles blew, and he was switched back into the game. Brown eyes glimmering, he shifted into the front row spot near a taller first year with dark hair.Â
        âWatch out for that blocker, dumbass.âÂ
        âWhy do you always call me that?!â
        Their yells didnât exactly reach that far up into the stands, but thanks to the general air around the two, you figured your lip-reading had been more than accurate.Â
        A small smile had settled onto your face as the game moved on, and not once had your fingers stopped twisting and twirling the string. Somehow, the energy of the game had seeped right into your own being, and soon you were biting your lip in anticipation.Â
        âBring it to me!â
        Hinata ran around the setter and jumped, and just when he reared back to spike--
        Tug.
         His body flailed and flew through the air like a fish out of water. The cringe from every person in the room was almost audible as soon as he crashed to the ground, the plastic numbers on the back of his jersey squealing in protest.Â
        When he finally stopped sliding, he flinched right as the ball that had been set for him bonked his forehead before dribbling away.Â
        For a moment, the entire gym was silent. Someâs mouths were gaped with awe, others had brows raised in concern. Luckily, not a single person saw you, watching your pinkie as though it had whispered the secrets of the universe.Â
        âAGAIN?!â Hinata shouted to himself, breaking the silence and wriggling around on his back in frustration. âSheâs gotta stop doing that!â
        Oops.
     âHinata, are you okay?!â His teammates crowd around the fallen spiker in a huddle, concerned looks being served left and right.Â
        In mere seconds, your face had shifted from ghostly white to rosy red, and it took you even less time to book it out of there.Â
        Bad habit, bad habit!
                                ###
        All throughout your life, you had waited to meet your soulmate. Was he tall? Short? Kind? Mean? What if he didnât even speak the same language?
        Each day, these questions plagued your mind, and somewhere along the way, your habit had grown. A little twist of the string, a small caress of the soft fabric wrapped around your pinkie, and the occasional tug when you got a little too anxious. Evidently, it was just waiting to come bite you in the ass.Â
        Hinata was ruthless now. Heâd been yanked out of his chair mid-class, toppled over in the middle of the street or hall, and even missed the bowl once or twice while just trying to relieve himself. All of that, he could handle.Â
        Though, apparently last night had been the last straw. What felt like every minute, the string on your hand would jerk you around so forcefully you almost flew right out the classroom window you sat beside.Â
        Only once in a while would you let it be obvious enough that the teacher had to ask if you were okay. Your notebook was now covered in hasty chicken scratch, eager to get in a line of notes before the next wrench of the string. Random lines of led littered the page from when he had caught you a moment too soon, but you were trying to adapt. There was a moment in between each jerk, and in those moments, you had true freedom.Â
        âIn nineteen-thirtysev-... ugh, nineteen-thirtysev- son of a bitch! In nineteen-thirty-- you know what, fuck it. I give up,â you grumbled under your breath, slamming your notebook closed amongst the now-constant tugs of your pinkie. There was really no point in trying now; Hinata had traded in his previous pattern of tug-wait-wait-tug for tug-tug-tug.Â
        You didnât even bother bringing your hand back up to your desk, instead deciding to let it flail around and dangle over the edge of the wooden surface.Â
        Sighs of relief fill the classroom as soon as the bell rings, and you snag your backpack off the floor in the nick of time. One large rip of the string has you scrambling out into the hallway, crashing into a locker and trying to stabilize your footing.Â
        âWoah, watch it!â
        âYeah, yeah, sorry.â The student seems to either have a stick up his ass no different than a popsicle or maybe the wave of your nonchalant hand didnât account for much of an apology. Either way, you didnât get to stick around for long, because soon your soulmateâs pulling is practically dragging you down the hall, bouncing off the occasional student like bumper cars.Â
        âI swear, Kageyama, sheâll be here. Just hold on for a second.âÂ
        Over the hoards of students stampeding in the opposite direction of you, you hear his voice. While you expected a vengeful snicker, you were pleasantly surprised with a giddy smile.Â
        Through the bodies moving slower than midday traffic, you saw Hinata, orange hair bobbing up and down in a school windowâs gleam.Â
        Bob and weave. Bob and weave.
        When you surface is when you see it. Your soulmateâs not simply pulling you toward him in a conventional way. No, rather, heâs reeling the string around his other hand like he caught a fish.
        âYN?â His movements halt and in true ragdoll fashion, you do as well.Â
        âSup.â
        Hinata, the guy you had been crushing on for your entire first year of high school, was your soulmate. Last night, you could barely go to sleep with all your excitement bubbling through your veins. Your smile had been as large as the moon itself as you wiggled around on your bed, kicking your feet whenever the pent up energy came to be too much.Â
        Now? That was a different story.Â
        No less had it been a small wave of giddiness, but it was more a wave of pure elation. Endorphins swam around your bloodstream enough to make your head fuzzy, but making eye contact with him hadnât been the only cause.Â
        No, because in seconds, Hinata had covered the distance between you two and tackled you like an ecstatic puppy. You were high on the rush of first touch, high on the rush of finally having him hold you in his arms.Â
        âI finally found you,â his voice is muffled by your shoulder and heâs got your school jacket bawled up in two fists. Thereâs a smile; you can almost feel him trembling against you in euphoria, but heâs not alone.Â
        Every nerve ending is set on fire when your arms wrap around him too. Unable to hold back your happiness, you release a small giggle that has him pressing you impossibly closer.Â
        âYeah, you found me.â
        With that, he leans back, lips pursed in uncertainty.Â
        âUmm, so do you wanna⊠like, erm, come watch me practice? I promise Iâll take you out after!â
        Seeing just how nervous he could be almost made you relax on instinct. An easy smile works its way onto your face. âYeah,â you nod, body still abuzz with the tingles of his touch, âyeah, that sounds good.â
        âGreat!âÂ
        Before you know it, Hinataâs encompassed your hand in his own warm one, leading you all the way out the school and to the second gym with a bored Kageyama on your tail.Â
        âYou gotta promise me one thing, though, before we go in there, YN.â
        âSure, whatâs up?â
        âSwear you wonât tug on the red string, okay? You have a terrible habit, and it always messes me up when I play!â
Okay yall, hear me out:
Iwaoi x reader
âthank you for coming by to my Ted Talk
Hiii so I was wondering (if you have the time to do it ofc) if you could do an Akaashi x reader story (preferably female) where sheâs Karasunoâs 1st year manager and she has a crush on Akaashi and they accidentally kiss ( like he falls on her or something ). Again, thank u so much and Iâm a HUGE fan of your writing!
aslkdhfasdj this is an extremely cute idea and i love it ill consider using it for another fandom!! however i've long moved on from the "first year" age so writing that now just sounds extremely uncomfortableđ
definitely a huge fan of the accidental kisses bro im even gonna write that down maybe do headcanons later omg ty honestly this makes me wish i had written it back when i started years ago so i wasn't so uncomfortable with it now :( super cute idea
Please give Oreo kisses for me... Hes so cute... He looks so done I love it
Eh, its true he is Pissyâą. He really do got that rbf, but I promise he is babie. Iâll def give him kisses for uđđ
*GIFs not mine*
A/N: too tired to write anymore. Hope you like it!
Word count: 653
Kageyama Tobio:Â
âDonât touch me.â
âI said donât fucking touch me. Iâm not sick.â
Absolutely tries to bury you six feet under with his glare anytime you come close with the cold cloth
Is the type to wrap up in blankets when and only when others arenât around
Instantly tears them off the second you come back into the room and severely regrets this afterwards
Never, and I mean never, lets you feed him. Sorry.
Medicine is the one thing heâs willing to depend on you for, and because heâs such a pain in the ass when heâs sick, you make the best of it--
By proceeding to buy the most disgusting-flavored liquid medicine and turning a blind eye toward the pills heâd specifically requested.Â
âThey were out.â âHow could they have run out? Itâs literally just-â âShut up, I said they ran out.â
Tries to hide his gag when he chokes down the medicine.Â
A few hours later heâs so delirious from the medicine and the fever that he finally lets you baby him a little bit. You bury him in a mountain of blankets, press a cold cloth to his forehead, and kiss his cheek.Â
âCuddle me,â he murmurs, cheeks flushed and eyes half-lidded.Â
Heâsnevergonnarememberthissofuckinggetitwhileyoucan you do as he asks
Next day he wakes up feeling better than ever, but youâve started sniffling and coughing.Â
âI told you not to touch me, dumbass.â
He takes care of you too.
Tendou Satori:
The sweetest, most obedient person youâve ever seen. An absolute doll.
Just. Fucking. Kidding.Â
âYN, get me this.â
âYN, get me that.â
The ultimate whining brat.Â
Iâm talking never shuts up, even when heâs ready to be knocked out on cold medicine.Â
Will literally stop in the middle of a coughing fit to beg you for something.Â
The king of âbut Iâm sickâ đ„șđ„ș
At first you were really worried, wanting to help him get over the cold so he wouldnât have to miss his next game.Â
Now youâre wondering whether or not to just drive home and block his number for the next few days.Â
Even when you go home for the night he texts you, asking for something or other. He wants you to buy him snacks or make him food or grab him a glass of water even though youâre not at his house.Â
Letâs be honest, heâs absolutely thriving under your attention. He grabs your hand as you walk past his reclined position on the couch and drags you down next to him, muttering something about how scalp massages are supposed to help cure colds while he pulls your hand to his hair.
Wonât eat anything unless youâre feeding it to him.Â
His inner five-year-old is finally coming out and you think heâs not gonna ask you to tuck him in? smh where have you even been this entire time
Finally, the charade ends when you burn your hand making him hot soup.Â
The scalding liquid splashes up onto the back of your hand and the second you cry out Tendou is up and on his feet, sprinting into the kitchen and practically tripping over his own long legs as he slides to a stop in front of you.Â
Assessing your furrowed brows and the way you cradle your hand, he grabs the cold cloth still stuck to his head before coaxing your hand away from your chest. He clicks his tongue as he wraps the wet fabric around your palm, running a thumb along your knuckles before raising his eyes to meet yours.Â
âBetter?â he whispers, pressing his lips to the backs of your fingers.Â
âMuch,â you smile, âbut I donât think Iâm gonna be able to take care of you anymore.â
âAhh, well then whatâs the point of putting my thermometer under hot water anymore?â
âWhat?!â
18+, minors dnrI write sometimes ig maybe, weâll seeđ« Masterlist . . . . . . Side BlogRequests? What requests?
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