Some More FANART For You All As We’re Coming Off Hiatus!! This One Done By @orpheuswasmine So Detailed

People are ANALYZING MY CHARACTER INTERPRETATIONS?!? 🤩 Actively trying not to get a big head about this. ☺️ @crypt-idkeeper has written this lovely post about A Human Condition. Check it out! Incredibly flattered to be analyzed. 🥰🥰

a moment of appreciation for 'A Human Condition'

this fic is by @sapphosscribe and believe I discovered it when there was only 8 chapters, there is as of now 24 chapters and I need to consume it, it is my preferred alphabet spaghetti and probably my favourite fic of the moment, when it's complete I plan to binge read the entire thing from start to finish.

what I really want to discuss today, is how bill specifically is written, and maybe in the future the pines family, cause it's written in such an enthralling way and deserves to be discussed.

many fics struggle to really capture Bill and his motivations though since the Book Of Bill I've seen a drastic change as each version people make of him gains more depth as the mysteries behind the character have now come to forefront he's no longer just this sadistic character with an unknown backstory.

the book of bill brought to light just how pathetic of a character Bill Cipher really is, despite not understanding love he seems to crave it just as much as he does survival, he wants to be adored and he needs to be important.

@sapphosscribe chapters this essence in their work and almost every action Bill makes is for his own survival in one way or another, it's very reminiscent of how characters that feel defeated try their best to seem confident and full of spite. Bill is very spiteful and finds joy in bringing those he's villainising in his mind (the pines family) pain or discomfort and despite how confident he tries to come off he's constantly flinching away from Mabel when all she's doing is trying to be nice, he antagonises ford and stan until they both physically harm him just so he knows he still has some power and he continues to threaten dipper, because dipper is the most scared of him, he needs to be in control, and he needs that power now, cause that's all he has. but he has basically nothing over Mabel accept in her dreams, which as of chapter 24 he no longer does, as she is now somewhat aware of what he is doing, and before that he is scared of her physically, until he is aware she can be useful and is basically harmless.

what I find the most compelling is how the author is able to recreate this sense of almost 'loyalty' that bill has towards those he has connected to, this confusing blur of selfless action he doesn't quite choose to do that remind me of when in the Book of Bill, he gives Ford 3 days, 3 days that confuse him, he's never given anyone such a large bracket of time to obey, and this action confuses him so much, that he chooses to get to drunk and waste those days away, getting so drunk that he forgets his own mother has been dead for at least a million years. I see this being replicated in how he treats Mabel in the fic, saving her life instead of taking his chance to escape and when he hurts her in the dreamscape, there is a moment where he feels actively guilty for doing so, even just for a moment. sure he wants to use her in a way that actively represents the quote from Alex Hirsch where he says "My concept is that Bill genuinely believes Mabel is kind of like him. he sees Mabel a chaos agent." but isn't that also a similar reason as to why Bill liked Ford, in chapter 21 he says "you know how it feels, to be the only one who can see the stars." directly addressing what made Ford special, he saw him as being similar to himself, he sees Mabel as being similar to himself and it causes empathy, sure Ford currently isn't giving Bill reason to empathise due to their negative relationship, but Mabel is, and we're seeing Mabel actively gain his trust to a point where he almost doesn't want to hurt her. A similar thing seems to being happening with Stan, not only is Stan beginning to compare bill to Wendy and Soos but they've actively bonded over their similarities, specifically criminal activity, Dipper is the only person in the family he is yet to bond with in some way, including Wendy.

further Soos and Melody bringing up Bills depression to Ford in this most recent chapter is very interesting, I mean he's clearly unstable and yet Ford refuses to believe it's not of his own volition, that Bill is just Bill. but like why can't an interdimensional demi god esk creature, be unwell. mental health isn't just human, even dogs and cats can become depressed or mentally unwell, and surely the more cognitive load and ability, the higher the likely hood of mental anguish, aren't people known to have the most realistic views of life society also seen to be depressed and constantly negative? he has every right to, he was literally poisoned when he was child and can't remember his home dimension due to the trauma of destroying it and at least in the Book of Bill he has convinces himself he was the hero, that he "liberated" them.

additionally as someone with sensory issues myself, Bills experience of being human, and learning what it means to feel, and eat, and tire, is very relatable and it makes sense why he would feel so weak now, the last time he had to deal with these feelings, was back in Euclydia, when he was in most definitions 'weak' and different, when the sensation of the "feelers" of other shapes was to much, when his medicine hurt and tasted gross, when the only person on his side where societies rejects, or his own mother. so obviously he stops trusting food when it makes him sick, like he did when his parents fed in 'medicine', obviously he takes control of his senses by inflicting pain on himself, and when he miss judges and painfully bangs his hip on the bathroom counter, he refuses to show Stan he is in pain, he feels like pray when he used to be the predator.

either way I absolutely love how this story is written and how Bill feels real, I mean, technically he was never really real, not physically, not in their dimension, but now he is, and now he is confined to their life, and Stan mirroring Bills complaint about the human body, "you think I want to be?" that anyone wants to be human, to be stuck in this incredibly mortal flesh? it's gorgeous, and I praise @sapphosscribe up and down for this lovely creation and I'm very excited to see where this goes now.

I hope to continue these rants, cause I love this fic.

Not a question, but when i first tried following you on tumblr, I followed this account and it solely posted about star trek and i was really confuse 😭 but like it had your name and stated being an ao3 author so i thought nothing of it until i decided to check again 💀 that acc was in fact not the right one

That legitimately made me laugh out loud 😂😂 While I do enjoy Star Trek, yeah that was not me. I’m going to have to investigate this now. In the words of Mabel “you’ve got me all curious-y”

I just really wanna say, whenever Bill gets rejected 2 thoughts go through my head.

The first is “aww he’s such a wet cat, look at him all grumpy and sad and wet.”

The other, more empathetic part of me gets all sad and goes: “His heart must shatter into a million pieces every time, and he probably has no idea how to navigate it in a healthy way cause he’s never had to understand human emotion to such depth of being nearly physical. He’s learning, and doing better, but that’s hard when he’s surrounded by people who so openly hate him. It must be why he connects with Mable so easily, she doesn’t treat him poorly for apparently no reason, she makes him feel good about himself. He wouldn’t ever want to lose that, would he? Especially after losing all his friends.”

Anyways, reading “A Human Condition” is always an emotional rollercoaster, and I live for it. I cry a little sometimes. I hope your bed is always comfy cozy and your pillow is always your preferred temperature. I’m gonna go make some doodles now.

@xxanxious-anxietyxx LOVE the Bill analysis he and Mabel have some great scenes coming up in a few chapters I think you’ll enjoy based off this 😉

In the meantime, there’s going to be plenty of sadness and rejection to go around!

My bed is perpetually cozy now thanks to this. This week’s update is going to be a good one…

Did I miss the new update this past Sunday? Or is my Ao3 being wonky?

Nope! There was no update this past Sunday! It’ll be this Sunday (which is not tomorrow but the day after for those in different times zones!)

I normally try to update every Sunday, but I’ve been incredibly busy lately so it’s every other Sunday for a little bit.

You haven’t missed anything! 💖

A look can say so much 😉🥰 Fanart of Ford and Bill for ch. 29 of A Human Condition created by the talented @orpheuswasmine

A HUMAN CONDITION CHAPTER 29 RAAHHHH

Dropping these fanart of these guys ! I’m gonna have to work on Fiddlestan this weekend maybe, since I can’t draw Fidds at all 😭 gonna figure out how to draw him today 😕

BUT HERE IS BILLFORD and holy shit 😭 I love how Bill expression came out, Billy looking quite happy 🥹 it’s totally going to be my new pfp me thinks !!!

“No me mires con esos ojos”

“Me deslumbras, me derrumbas”

“No me mires con esos ojos”

“Te lo doy todo, ni modo”

“No me mires con esos ojos que”

“Me derrites, me trasmites”

“La vergüenza del sol, quien en su resplandor. Se ve opacado. A tu lado.”

I definitely recommend listening to Impacto for the candyland scene, geniuely so fitting they make me SCREAM 😭 Aside from that, I changed a little thing up about Billy 🥹 Those eyes are looking a little more cooler… Wish i could animate, it looked way cooler in my head LOL

Personally, I feel like if you let Bill play on the Sims, there’s two households and one Billy takes care of while Bill takes care of the other. One house is in flames and the anger and hate is being projected, the other is a normal home that totally isn’t mourning the home that died all those billion years ago chill 😦 totally… just a funny thought in mind 💀

P.S. I nearly forgot to go back my classroom after my break, I ended up showing up late because I wanted to finish rendering Ford 😭🙏 None of my coworkers were bothered tho !!!

@sapphosscribe fanart has been delivered 🙏 expect more 🥹🔥

A little treat 🥰

SOME MORE CH. 28 FANART!! @knockknockwhosthereartistism has done great work with Mabel and Bill’s dream sequence and the Euclydia flashback! Feast your eyes!👀

From chp.28 of " A Human Condition"!

@sapphosscribe

Bonus: Bill's full sweater initial sketch vvv

-The planets and the bigger stars are embroidered and more 3D

-The silver thread is like tinsel and glittery

-Some of the stars have glitter in them

It’s shitty quality cause I drew it super small on the canvas but I wanted to show the full basic design since I couldn’t in the piece😭😭😭

GUYS GUYS GUYS!! @orpheuswasmine’s posters are done and they are magnificent!! There’s also a great character analysis to go with it!! Ahhhhh!!! 😆😆

Expect an update tomorrow. I know you’ve all been patiently waiting 😉🥰

“I need some to remember me.”

HUMAN CONDITION POSTER FANART DROPPP RAAHHH 🔥🔥🔥

I WAS GOING THROUGH SM BUT HERE THEY ARE !!! Took so long hope you all like them though !!!

“I need something bigger then the sky.”

The Remenants of Bill

“Hold it in my arms know it’s mine.”

The Thriving Seed of Bill

“Just how many stars do I need to hang around me?”

This took me a while !!! And I can talk about the Bill vs Billy whole thing now 💀

Basically, how I read a Human Condition, it’s practically this whole dichotomy of Bill vs Billy and no one is aware of it. Believing Bill can change is an act of believing Billy is there, believing Bill can’t change means Billy is dead.

Billy is the root of Bill’s empathy and change, or what Bill would call, the root of his weakness. Bill considers Billy weak and deadweight, something worth forgetting. In the first lines, we ever read from Billy in A Human Condition is, “Just fit in”.

In the beginning of the Billy storyline, he himself in a major contradiction to Bill’s own beliefs and self-worth. Billy is what everyone hopes to achieve in the end, but Billy died the day Bill destroyed their dimension… right? Yes and no 🐺

The remnants live on and begin to crack through ways that Bill has taken notice of, especially when he’s with Mabel. It’s moments where he spends time with Mabel, I picture the hostile face shifting to a more softer and rounder face. Mabel brings out the best in him. Unknowingly the reason Billy returns. It isn’t just Mabel that brings the Billy side out. It could be objects of interest or of fear and even guilt. Objects of interest could be the silly straw or the spaghetti scene from the recent chapter. The fear and guilt of Billy is brought out by Ford when he chokes him out or when Bill wanders into the mind space Ford had locked up.

I have more to say about Billy, but man I gotta talk about Bill because I got so much to say about him.

Bill is a cheat, liar, and other say, a monster through and through. But Bill is simply a manifestation of survival and going against all of that he knew. The line in chapter 27, “Yes. I’m completely cured. My irregularity will not affect my ability to fit in, your excellence.” This is a lie that Bill said, this was an act of wanting to survive and protecting himself. This is also the point in the Billy storyline that Billy starts to identify himself with Bill and this is the same chapter where his mother and father starts to call him, Bill, as well.

This is the plantings seeds of Bill, that continue to thrive even after failing the very thing he was manifested for. He allowed not just himself but Billy to die. It’s only now they have another chance, but Bill believes he’s the sole reason why they had survived for so long before. Billy is weak and can only bring in danger. This pathetic, weak, piece of him is holding him back, and yet it is something worth protecting just to survive.

We see Bill truest form through lines like, “But Bill wasn’t weak. He was strong and he was smarter than all of them. They didn’t see it yet, but he could prove it! He only needed time. He wouldn’t be a burden, he would be a credit to all triangles, like his parents had said. He was different than other irregulars. He was better.”

But the next line is, “Because Bill was weak in the eyes of Euclydia. He was a freak, an irregular. He was made wrong. And yet. Bill wanted to live.”

Bill is a manifestation of wanting to survive and not letting anyone in. Even in this weak human form, that motivation drives home. He is protecting not himself but Billy as well.

I imagine if you were to enter Bill’s mind, it would be this split down the middle where Bill and Billy are seprated, but both of them have a piece of each other. Bill with a younger and triangle Billy, while good old human Billy is trapped with a more familiar triangle Bill.

Here’s pictures without the word 😼

“To finally get somewhere I can be all done.”

“Somewhere like Heaven.”

That’s how read Bill and Billy’s storyline and interpreted it. The drawings showcase them and in their own spaces. I like to think Bill is in the darkest part and only he and Billy illuminate the space. I gave him crazy long hair that would be everywhere since he is everywhere and because having long hair is great, but such a pain to try and maintain and take care of.

Billy looks the most like Bill’s human form, since he practically accepted this and the only artical of clothing he’s wearing is the sweater Mabel has gifted them. He’s in the brighter and hopeful side since he holds all the good parts. He’s just trapped with a piece of Bill, still trying to guard him.

Can’t wait to see what A Human Condition has in store and I’ll probably continus on with this theory/headcanon 😭 I actually have some headcanons about Bill and Billy, but idk if anyone wants to hear allat 💀

@sapphosscribe AGAIN, you’re such a talented writer! Got me thinking and all 😭 can’t wait to see what you have been cooking up 😼

hiiii ;3

I love your fanfic very much and I'm looking forward to the new chapter, have a nice day!

(bill from @raviolireptile)

Ahhhh!!! So pretty!!! Thanks for letting me know about this! Such a great portrait of Bill that chapter 🩷🩷🩷! @raviolireptile @schhhwa

Hello Dear Readers! 💖

The update is coming! Either late today or tomorrow depending on how much I get done. I haven’t had much time to write this week, but it’s a short chapter so it won’t take long to finish.

Hope you’re all ready 😉