We All Have Things We Hate About Ourselves.   Mine Is The Desire For Your Love.

Thank. I feel normalized. Never ever found anything that summed up my life better than this. Damn.

Normalize getting sluttier, bloodier, and overall more insane

The funniest thing is that the apocalypse world cas would actually say all of these things.

Thank

Euripides (Tr. Anne Carson) / @wholeheartedsuggestions / Jenny Slate / Euripides again

You are so far away. And I am so down in the dumps. So unworthy. That admiting that I love you feels like fucking hubris.

I couldn't pick a favorite.

I know house and cuddy's ship isn't exactly liked but When house said to cuddy something along the lines of: beingwith you makes me a worse doctor. It will cost lives. You are worth it.

I felt that

When being a doctor saving lives was the only thing that kept house going. Yet he gave up everything to be with Willson. Knowing that Willson will die leaving him all alone. Still he did it.

I felt that

I made myself sad again

Hi so I stormlight archives books and I keep thinking about the skybreaker ideals.

I think the fourth ideal of the skybreakwrs would be about forgiveness. Realizing that law is not always perfect. That there needs to be interpretation on the side of one laying down the law.

So the fourth ideal could be like. 'I accept that law is not perfect.' And sezth forgives himself for all he has done. Not completely of course. It is a journey. And that's what the words are about. Taking the next step to healing.

It does follows the pattern.

The first ideal is the ideal to start. To try again. To recognize that there is journey.

Second ideal is duty. To protect those who cannot protect themselves.

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Swearing to uphold the law

Third is the ideal of guidance : to protect even those one Hate as long as it is right.

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To follow an external law

Now the forth ideal is the ideal of acceptance: I accept that there will be those I cannot protect.

And it is stated that skybreakers and wind runners are not that different.

It makes sense that the fourth ideal of skybreakers is acceptance that law is flawed and forgives himself.

And i think kaladin is going to the king of new hearelds. His eyes are of rage. of jezriene king of hearelds. Lets see.

Please miss me.

I don't think I've ever related to a character more than I do to crowly.

And it might sound pretentious. I relate to him not cause he's cool or dress nice. And aloof and unaffected by the world around him. For the most part.

Its because like him I too try to be cool and evil.

Because like him, I am also in love with my best friend.

Because like him I too talk to God when I am at my wits end.

Because like him I too want to run away with my best friend/ love of my life.

Away from all this bullshit. And i keep dropping hints and I know she knows, at least I am hoping. But I don't feel worthy.

But I will endulge in that hubris all the same.

But unlike him. If she gave me a choice of serving as her second in command. As long as it meant staying by her side. I will abandon all I am and join her.

Not sure what that makes me.

Me: Doc, I miss her too much. Not sure what to do.

Doc (also Me): Murther when feeling sappy / shy. Destiel when feeling numb / sad. Hannigram when feeling helpless / hopeless.