I Need Atsushi And Chuuya To Meet Before Bsd Ends, Because I Just Know They'd Be Besties.

Beast is seriously insane from Akutagawa's perspective because like. Imagine a man showing up in your darkest moment of revenge, only to completely call you out on all your deeply sensitive flaws and everything that's wrong with you, kidnap your sister, and ask for a rematch without actually leaving a way to find him again and you're just like, "hello do I know you??"

And then some four and half years later you actually find him again only to learn he's like actually the Mafia boss, he for some reason deeply wants you to fight this other guy who you barely know, you get completely wrapped up in his ridiculous scheme for some reason or another, he compliments your fight with said stranger by comparing it to another fight with said stranger that has never existed in your mind, casually reveals the most crazy, existential crisis inducing information, appoints you and stranger who you just met to be "guardians" of something you barely understand when all you want is to find your sister and be a detective, and then you're forced to watch as the man who again, you've met exactly one (1) time before in your life, casually throws himself off a roof and you're just like. "ok???"

Happy Birthday Nakahara Chūya-sensei!

To celebrate Nakahara Chūya’s birthday here are his top three quotes from my blog:

Quote #3:

Searching for memories that aren’t there, this heart of mine Closes itself up, languishes like an old moldy box of trinkets And then there are these sunken cheeks, these cracked lips- Bitterness bred in cruelty comes rushing out in silence…

I’ve grown accustomed to it all, and have leaned to bear it But sometimes any degree of loneliness can bring you down And while I cannot know for sure, sometimes it seems as if These tears are no longer tears for having loved someone…

- Nakahara Chūya, “Poem of the Sheep” from Poems of the Goat

Quote #2:

Soiled Sorrow: today too snow falls on it; soiled sorrow: today too wind blows on it.

Soiled sorrow is like, say, a fox’s fur; soiled sorrow in its torpor dreams of death.

Soiled sorrow frightens me piteously; soiled sorrow can’t be remedied, and the sun sets…

- Nakahara Chūya, “Soiled Sorrow” from The Poems of Nakahara Chūya

Quote #1:

Now in this world full of sadness, Don’t let your heart harden. For the sake of whatever intimacy we could have, Don’t let your heart harden.

Hardened, the heart is oblivious to the world, And words fall silent on the soul. Nurturing serenity, man returns to that dreaminess Known at the beginning, and can make sense of it all.

- Nakahara Chūya, “Untitled” from Poems of the Goat

Having the events of Dazai's entrance exam take place before the start of the series rather than during it really makes Kunikida's character make so much more sense. Specifically why, at the beginning of the series, he was really hesitant to save Atsushi, or have Atsushi save Kyouka. It's not out of rudeness or apathy. He won't let himself care, because he tried before. He tried to bring up a kid that had a bad life, and it only ended in failure. The events of the Azure Messenger arc really shape Kunikida's character into being someone who wishes he was a hero, but isn't. That he can't save everyone. So when Dazai saves Atsushi, at first, Kunikida doesn't want to grow close or allow himself to care because he feels that this too is only going to end in failure. Hence what he tells Atsushi about he and Kyouka both drowning if there isn't enough room on the boat (the metaphor admittedly makes more sense when he said it). It just adds so much in respect to his character if it happened before the events of the series as opposed to during it, because then it just makes Kunikida out to be super uncaring. But he's not. He just doesn't want to get his hopes up until he can truly accept the fact that this time, it might end better.

Genuinely don't know how this will turn out, but—

This is just Stormbringer and it's not even a fanfiction. I think Asagiri figured out we like Chuuya when he wrote it.

I love how, when the finale of season five aired, the Jailbreak arc shifted from a heartbreaking tragedy to the most unhinged comedy ever.

I love how for the last few chapters, I saw so many posts that were confused, annoyed, bored, and just generally frustrated with the direction the series was taking, claiming that it was getting repetitive, and then this chapter came around and now everyone is like "YES YES THIS IS WHY IT'S MY FAVORITE SERIES THIS IS AMAZING THIS IS A MASTERPIECE I NEVER DOUBTED YOU FOR A SECOND ASAGIRI, YOU LITTLE GENIUS—"

I have a theory about why Chuuya goes by his first name, as opposed to most other people. Because even in the manga, where characters like Fyodor, Nikolai, and Lucy are generally referred to by their surnames, Chuuya goes by his given name in both the manga and anime. *Stormbringer Spoilers*

First of all, when he was fifteen, he likely went by his first name because he was surrounded by friends, by the people who raised him, and going by something like a family name would be distant and unnatural, and likely not something Chuuya would push. So when he met Dazai, he was still immature enough to go only by his given name, and he probably doesn't bother enforcing it when he joined the Mafia either.

But. After the events of Stormbringer and when Chuuya grows up, I suspect it was for a different reason. We don't see much of Chuuya after he escapes the military facility, but since he knew how to speak, my guess would be that he knew enough to know his name, even if he couldn't remember much else. Chuuya was his name, given to him by birth, but the name "Nakahara" isn't. That's N's name, the name of the person who kidnapped him, experimented on him, and tortured him. The real Chuuya's surname was actually Kensuke, and I think something similar applies to him in universe as well. When he was taken by N, the name Nakahara was given to him, but the name Chuuya is the one his real parents gave to him, the name he received when he was born, the name that proves his humanity. So he probably chooses to stick with that name, even though he really could insist on being called "Nakahara" because "Chuuya" is the one that's his.

best world trigger panel ever