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Male Reader x 141 Boys
Male reader is introduced to the 141 but is younger than them and has the rank of a General...
pairing: professional/platonic!141 x m!reader
warnings: swearing
note: i chose to do this as hcs as opposed to an actual fic bc I couldn't actually think of a plot or anything
it's E Squadron of the SAS who bring you over to the one four one base; you used to be one of them, and they've never been prouder and they do kind of want to show off that one of their own had climbed so far up the ladder at such a young age
Price is the first to meet you, a little shocked that someone so young is so far up the food chain; but he's polite, and he doesn't act as if you're any different just because you're young. he also doesn't treat you any differently because of your rank, either; but if anyone gets gobby or tries to be mean to you based on your age, he'll stand up for you
Ghost is the same, although he's not as polite; he's still nice, still offers to show you around and everything. he doesn't really care that you're young, especially for a general - sure he's a bit shocked at first but he soon shrugs it off, it's not really a big deal; he might wonder how you got so high up the chain of command so young, but he won't ask
Soap, however, does ask. at length. he doesn't make it a secret that he's impressed, or that he's curious; he tries his best to be on his best behaviour, but he's not going to hold back any questions that he's got at all. but if you ask him to back off, he will - if he's asking a lot of personal questions (which he will), and you ask him to be a bit more distant, he'll crack a joke to show there's no ill will and he'll try to calm it down a notch, try being the key word
Gaz is a mix, he might ask you how you achieved the rank of general at your age, but only if he can get you alone for a couple of minutes; he doesn't want to pry, although he will make it known that it's kind of really impressive and cool that someone so young managed to get that high up - he'll joke around with you more, though, as it's nice to have someone around who would understand certain things like Lizzy the daily star lettuce and Rishi Sunak sounding like Will from The Inbetweeners (briefcase wanker)
they do try their best to make you feel welcome, though, and to make you feel like one of them - you might be a general, but because of your previous experience as SAS, especially as E Squadron, they're more trusting of you. besides, you're young, and you seem like you've got a good head on your shoulders anyway
whenever you're out of the room, though, it'll Price who speaks up
"that (y/n), he's a nice lad, ain't he?"
to which Ghost will nod
Soap will pipe up with a "yeah, he seems alright, actually"
Gaz will nod in agreement. "you sure we can't ask to be under his command?"
can we have more hcs w young!reader :o they were so cute, do u think you could write like sparring w them or something, ty!!
â of course omggg <3 i love this concept whenever i see anyone else write this kind of thing with platonic young reader i eat that shit up !!! also merry christmas and happy last day of hannukah to all who celebrate!!
â tags : gender neutral!reader, written with 19 y/o reader in mind, all platonic relationships, fluff, young!reader is stereotypical gen z kinda, this is probably the most light-hearted thing i've ever written but there's separate angst at the end because i can't stop myself, as usual it's not really proofread
⥠so of course it takes awhile for you to come out of your shell around the rest of the 141. the previously youngest one of the group, kyle, is 7 whole years older than you, so it's a bit awkward at first.
⥠but once you're comfortable around them, you let your guard down a little and start letting your "regular" personality show instead of the "work" one. this involves bouncing-off-the-walls levels of energy and constant jokes and references that only kyle gets, and that's only sometimes. the other three guys just exchange a look and move on.
⥠you're constantly doing little dances and just fidgeting around, playing with anything you can get your hands on and always bouncing a leg (also never actually sitting like a normal person, price doesn't understand how you're comfortable most of the time). once, when it was just you and soap, you taught him a dance he thought looked fun, but made you promise to never tell anyone else. you told ghost as soon as you saw him next, and that was the first time you ever saw ghost smile (under the mask, of course, but you could tell).
⥠you don't really respect the more "arbitrary" boundaries; you would randomly take food off of the other guy's plates without asking and you always had to be invading someone's personal space. after lots of scolding and you acting like they were denying you a fundamental human right, they learned that it really was easier to just accept it and give up. you don't take food from ghost's plate, because you may be a little dumb sometimes but you aren't stupid. sometimes he shoves his leftovers in your direction if he notices you aren't eating as much that day.
⥠when you aren't terrorizing one of the 141 members, they keep an eye on you while you focus on whatever your latest interest is with an intensity that they'd only expect from you on actual life-or-death missions. it always causes soap some actual concern for you, but you just think it's because he can't sit still, ever.
⥠once, after you had all returned from a mission, you went into your room to shower, came out, got something to eat, then went into your room and proceeded to spend the next 3 days completing the newest pokemon game. full pokedex, awesome outfit, full level 100 team, you had it all, and you proudly shoved the switch screen in their faces to show them your achievements once you deemed yourself done. they learned you were a perfectionist pretty early on, while they took turns checking on you every few hours.
⥠you'll do the thing of casually dropping something horrible that happened to you into a conversation, as if it was just some silly thing that happened the other day. they all just kind of do a double take, because none of them actually talk about that stuff. you just look up from whatever app you were absently fiddling with on your phone and wonder why everyone went quiet; they just move on, as usual.
à«ź ââą Ë âą` á here, have some sparring headcanons now!
⥠when you and ghost sparred for the first time, you swore up and down he was out to break every bone in your body. he told price that it was the easiest he'd went on a recruit in years (he did also say you did much better than he expected). despite your complaints, you got back up every single time he knocked you on your ass, and you quickly adapted to the way ghost fought. you still didn't win a single round, but that was more of a him-being-really-big thing.
⥠soap only goes easy enough on you to not break any bones, but it doesn't take much to get him fired up, and sparring is no exception. you spend the entire session on the defensive, just trying to keep yourself all intact. you always lecture him that you aren't the actual goddamn enemy before you spar with him now while he rolls his eyes and says you're being dramatic.
⥠kyle claims he isn't going easy on you but everyone knows he is. he can't help it; usually he doesn't care that much when he accidentally actually hurts someone when sparring, but the thought of leaving a scar on you rubs him the wrong way. he doesn't ever tell anyone this, but everyone sees how he always acts like an older brother to you.
⥠you only actually spar with price once, mostly as a joke, after you're all more acquainted. you're acting all cocky, basically just saying he's old and you'll put him in the retirement home a couple years early. you're on your back in less than five seconds with him looking down at you, a loud laugh booming out of his chest.
⥠one time, ghost must have been sick or something, because the match ended with you making what would have been the killing blow in a real fight. you had stared in amazement at your achievement, then started yelling at the other guys to ask if they had seen what you had done. ghost let you have your victory, finding your astronomical excitement funny (on the inside, of course).
⥠kyle is your easiest target. usually he doesn't even want to spar with you anymore, because he knows you'll probably end up throwing him to the ground with your full strength and saying you don't need to go easy on him, he's a grown ass man. you've mastered how to use his weight against him, and he knows it. he also knows the look you get when you're walking up to him to ask to spar, and at this point he just points you to soap or ghost and shoos you away. one time he actually said "go on, git!" to you; his british accent made it much more funny than he had intended.
⥠fighting against soap kind of has 50-50 odds of you winning. if you're not afraid to start bleeding in multiple areas that day, you'll most likely be able to pin him. if you don't feel really like it, then you pretty much just have to run away. your before-sparring lecture for him eventually gets accompanied by an after-sparring lecture from you while he helps you put band-aids on the new cuts and scrapes.
âáą.á.áąâ okay a couple angsty ones because i can't help it,,,
⥠price knows how young you are, and you know he does without him having to tell you, because sometimes you catch him looking at you with sad eyes that see a lot more than you do. usually, if the conditions are just right, you're all for attempting to get the team members to open up to you, but this is what you and price don't talk about. instead, you tell him not to worry, that you'll at least outlive him.
⥠they're all waiting for that one day that, on one of their missions, you'll see something or have to do something that you won't come back from, because it's inevitable in this line of work. but you find a way to smile, even after the worst days, and you always say it's because someone has to.
Anonymous asked: hello, I was hoping you could do a price and m!reader ,with the reader being a young soldier in the 141 who price personally trained so thereâs that sort of father son bond , with the prompt âthis is the sixth fight Iâve had to stop you getting into, whatâs going on?â. I kinda have an ideas that the reader keeps getting in fights with the older soldiers cause they donât think the reader is deserving of being in the 141 but you donât have to do specifically that. Thank you:)))
summary: Priceâs treatment of you does result in some tension between you and the other soldiers.Â
tws: swearing, violence, smokingÂ
Lazily, you stretched as you folded your arms across your chest, eyes feeling heavy as you yawned so harshly that your eyes watered and your jaw ached; Price had gotten you up early, said something about one of your old RAF colleagues coming over to see how you were doing, and now you were shattered. Price was lucky that he was family, if anything; after he had taken it upon himself to train you up when you first joined the army, seeing you all the way through to joining the RAF and then taking you under his wing so that he could train you for the task force before you joined it under his command, it was hard to think of him as anything else.
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@satan-incarnate-666 asked: âYouâre a softie, reallyâ keegan russ & familial m!reader pls
summary: Keegan hates your fucking guts, but he does love you⊠kind of.
tws: swearing, mentions of violence
Keegan loathed you. He absolutely despised and hated you with every fibre of his being, but if someone were to so much as look at you the wrong way, he wouldnât hesitate to cause them such woe and agony and misery that it would make anyone wince and ask if it was a bit too much; he supposed, though, thatâs why the other Ghosts teased him about being your adopted big brother. He loathed you so much that if you even hinted at being upset, he would immediately try to find out who had caused it, and make them suffer; only he was allowed to bully you, no one else, and he made that more than known. Even the other Ghosts didnât try to so much as playfully bully you, as they didnât want to face Keegan losing his temper with them. No matter what, big brother Keegan was always there to save you; whether you were too smart for your own good and had gotten yourself into shit, too ambitious and rambunctious and ending up in a situation you werenât prepared for, or simply because you refused to slow down, refused to back down; big brother Keegan was always there to pull your ass out of the fire, with only mild complaints about it. Big brother Keegan, always there to pull his little SAS brother out of any shit that tried to coat him.Â
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@satan-incarnate-666 asked: âHugging⊠too tight⊠canât breatheâŠâ keegan russ & m!reader whoâs like a lil bro
summary: Keegan makes a massive fucking mistake, and he knows it.
tws: hallucinations, paranoia, swearing, war/death mentions
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Long nights spent alone used to be fun, when you and Keegan were sent out on missions and you had his company; but now you were trusted enough to do them on your own, and you quickly found that you didnât like them so much. You kept looking around, suspicion growing at even the slightest shadow, flinching when you thought you heard footsteps that simply werenât there, panicked and shaky; not so brave when you were stranded and isolated, without the man you had come to know as your brother.Â
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hey everypony ghostroach đ
Créditos ou autor original
Credits or original author
Guys I just found out that if a hickey is placed wrongly on your neck (near your jaw or by your arteries) it can actually give you a stroke because the blood might clotđ
WHAT THE FUCK HOW DID I NOT KNOW THIS AND NOW IM SCARED TO GIVE OR RECEIVE ANY HICKEYS AND NOW WHENEVER I THINK ABOUT IT IT MAKES ME FEEL SO UNCOMFORTABLE AND ICKY HELP
HELP IM SORRY I KEEP LYING AND SAYING IM GONNA POST MORE LMAO GUYS I REALLY AM SORRY IVE BEEN LYING TO YOU ALLđđ
Guys itâs official I will be posting again tho! (NOT CLICKBAIT AND REAL!)
GUYS I WANNA WRITE ABOUT TRANSFORMERS AND TMNT (both bayverse) SO MUCH BUT IM SCARED MY POSTS WILL FLOP
I HAVE A BUNCH OF TRANSFORMERS FANFICS THAT I WANNA POST REALLY BADLY
Thereâs such a huge difference in cod fans like youâre either the one of those âog fansâ who get mad over literally anything, then thereâs the fans who know 5 characters and say that there favourite member of Tf141 is König (itâs okay though ik yall are doing your bestđ) , also the people that just like the game in general and arenât toxic or super rude and last but not least THE TEENAGE RACIST HOMOPHOBIC MISOGYNISTIC BOYS WHO YELL THE N WORD AT ANYONE OR ANY GIRL WHO EVEN BREATHS IN THE GAME.
No one could ever make me dislike Logan Walker from cod ghosts. Heâs my little princess Pookie bear and I love him no matter whatđ
Look at that little cutie pieđ€
I got so many good fanfic ideas and actual fanfics in my notes app but Iâm to shy to post themđđ
Have you ever read a fanfic so unhinged and absolutely out of pocket that you have to stop and take a break and think about whatâs actually wrong with you and why youâre reading it. I feel so ashamed, embarrassed, shocked and confused all at once afterwards.
I love Velikan from cod regardless if heâs a huge, masked military man with one voice line which is literally just him laughing like a maniac after killing somebody. Would I run away if I saw him in real life? Yes. Yes I would. But that still doesnât change my mind about him. Heâs so fine I mean how could I not want him.
How do mfâs actually like fictional masked men lmaođ
(I am mfâs đ)
THEYâRE SO FINE I CANT HELP IT
Nikto from COD is actually so fine it should be a crime. His eyes, his voice and his attitude heâs just sođ»đ»đ»
I literally love him so much itâs not even a joke. I would buy him everything he ever wanted and everything he wants. Iâd cook for him, clean for him, and love him. Iâd do anything for him.
Live footage of what I look like as Iâm reading one of those COD head cannon slideshows and they actually have the characters I like and not just TF 141 + König
I hate liking underrated characters, ESPECIALLY when the fandom is popular on social media and everyone just knows the popular hot characters đ„Č
Like the COD fandom, sure Ghost and König are hot but what about Nikto, Oni, Logan, Kick, Horangi, Roach, Velikan!? Thereâs literally little no no fanfics of themđ
Sugar sweet
Pairing: John price x assistant! Reader
Warning: unspecified age gap, 'bratty' reader, brief description of past, implied emotional neglect, mild/tame bits of angst, reader is kinda pathetic but we salute her, AFAB/female! Reader, suggestive content at the end, Mild NSFW at end, brief sexual fantasies (oral - male receiving) , John is pining in his own way
Tag: msil
Apologies. I've never written for Price so please bare with me if he's ooc. This is my firt time posting writing on here đ but I got a spark of courage from some encouragement!I absolutely love this idea and couldn't help but be inspired. Full credit to Dante for the prompt. I just got writing fuel from it.
Was it so wrong to want some praise for your hard work? To want to hear âgood jobâ for once in your life? You did a good job, and you know that. Your salary reflects it, along with a few appreciative pats from others. You often hear murmurs from colleagues who say, âYou just work too hard; take a break,â along with their well-meaning concerns. But you liked being busyâhelping those who sacrificed so much for everyone else, often with little reward, just paperwork, bruises, and bleeding wounds. Your hands were rough from the grit on your gun grinding against your palms and fingertips.
You were just being grateful. Helpful.
And a helpful little bird you wereâalways fluttering around Priceâs office. This time, you brought him a fresh cup of coffee and a bagel: egg, sausage, and spinach. You left it at his desk to the side so his arm wouldnât knock it over. Taking a silent breath, you stood there, lingering, hands clasped behind you, as your eyes flitted over the man currently hunched over his desk and the food you had brought.
Another beat passed. Nothing.
He let out a small grunt as he shifted in his seat, giving a small sniff as he continued to drag his eyes along each word, scratching a few out with a thick black Sharpie. His thick brows were pinched tight, creasing his foreheadâa look you were all too familiar with when it came to Price. It always made him look older, though the air he gave off already did that just fine, making the wrinkles forming around his eyes and on his forehead more prominent. He squinted at the words as if each one were an offense.
âI thought youâd like something to eat; I havenât seen you have anything for a few hours, soââ you gestured to the bagel, a smile curled on your lips. The tinted lip balm gave them a pleasant shine and a healthy hue, and a faint taste of strawberries lingered on your tongue from when you had licked your lips, nerves tight in your core before entering his office.
And once againânothing.
He only vaguely acknowledged it, barely glancing before he reached for the coffee and took a sip. A small gruff sound escaped him as the warmth pooled down his throat.
You faltered, but your smile remained brave in the face of his stoic behavior. âWell, Iâll leave you be,â you said, the words coming out cheery in your desperate attempt to not sound as awkward as you felt.
You shuffled toward the door after a few more seconds of waiting. Maybe, just maybe-
âLove?â
Instantly, you whipped around, chest puffing out as your heels squeaked against the floor. âYes, sir?â
âBlue suits you.â
Your face twisted as you paused, about to ask what he meant. Looking down at yourself, you saw a crisp white blouse snugly tucked into a black pencil skirtâone that was smaller than you had anticipated. You had noticed it seemed to draw his attention more often than not, so the purchase didnât seem to be all for nothing. There was only a single hint of blue on you, except for yourâ
Blood rushed to your cheeks as you let out a sharp gasp. Immediately, you twisted around to see that the skirt had ridden up, revealing the edge of your baby blue panties stretched across your backside. The lace trim was exposed for all to see. Hastily, you pushed down the fabric of your skirt, adjusting it to sit better on your hips. Smoothing it down was when you saw it: his eyes finally lifted from the paper, a steaming mug pressed to his lips. A pleased crinkle appeared in his eye as he took in everything.
You had never left his office faster. Your face was too warmâmuch too warm. Before you knew it, you were stumbling into the bathroom, splashing water onto your face to cool down. Lifting your head to stare at your reflection, you cursed. Your mascara had smudged, streaking down your cheeks as if you had cried. The light, natural shade of your eyeshadow was now splotchy and smeared around your eyes. You pressed your lips together in a tight purse, scolding yourself for your forgetfulness.
Yanking rough tissues from the dispenser, you dabbed at your face, trying to salvage what makeup remained.
Standing amid the dim lighting of the bathroom, you couldnât help but stare. What were you doing? A woman your age prancing around in short skirts and makeup? Sure, you had always been inclined to doll yourself up, but it had usually been a treatâsomething to anticipate after a rough week. Now, it felt like a routine, ensuring you had a pretty glow and your best features enhanced. When did you become so desperate for such minimal attention?
Perhaps it was when your father always hummed in stiff, dry tones whenever you spoke. Or when your mother would glance up from her phone, scrolling while you tried to show her something you were proud of, only for her to finally respond to something you had said five sentences ago.
Maybe it was when you did your best at everythingâschool work, getting a job as soon as possible, and even landing an office position mere months after finishing your education. Always made sure the house is clean and never ask your parents for help, despite feeling sickly and overwhelmed. Always doing your very best to remain as pleasant as possible and chase any spontaneous kiss to your head and word of approval from either of them. But the majority of the time, it was nothing. After all, you were expected to do well. So independent and mature at such a young age. How well they must have raised you to be so self-sufficient. They would praise so highly to their friends. Expected to have a good job and a happy air to you.
After all, you were so lucky. They were people having it worse than you. Why would you ever feel so low you wanted to quit everything and grovel in your bed?
Or it could have started when friends would always have an excuse to decline your plans or something last minute came up. Dates always having you carry the conversation after having to endure hours of dry texting and inconsistent messages.
A nagging need to just hear one satisfied hum. To feel a ruffle to your hair or a firm pat on your shoulder. The sweet euphoria of hearing a pleased âGood girlâ. You craved it like how a chef always twitched to snag a cigarette between their lips. An itch you could never scratch no matter how many times you self-affirmed with loving post-stick notes on your bedroom mirror and muttered endless approval to yourself for the most simple of things.
You huffed as you shook your head. Why bother with such a man like Price? The only time he seemed to even bat an eye in your direction was when you flashed your legs or your shirt hugged your breasts too tight. You were mere meat and he was a hungry dog. A frown grew on your lips as you patted your cheeks. Glaring at your reflection as you fixed yourself up and pushed out of the bathroom.
It started with your wardrobe; wearing trousers that looked smart enough for your job but gave your shape no compliments. Its rigid seams even making your hips look boxier and your legs shorter as you trade your polished heels for simple flats. Your blouses no longer hugged the curve of your chest. And if you wanted the relief skirts gave then it was unshapely skirts â pleated or plain and sleek â that ended half way down to your calf.
And then it was the coffee. It tasted the same? Then why bother with saving an extra palmful of cash for the fancy brand. You served it in Johnâs signature mug with the same beaming smile and didnât waste your time to linger. To wait for any response. Bustling down the halls with files tucked to your chest. With the extra cash now staying in your pockets you treated yourself to paying for a nice cake or an overpriced coffee of your own that gave you that needed rush for the busy day.
Head held high as you gave up your pursuit. You were always such a independent girl.
And Price? Well, as soon as he tasted the bland blend of coffee he frowned. Lips smacking as the familiar graininess of the bases blend hit his tongue. His head lifting but you were already gone. Huffing like a bull every time he drank from it. In the end, it went cold half drunk and staining the white mug.
And your clothes; what happened to his pretty bird? Sure, your beauty wasnât easy to conceal and the lack of powder to your face didnât change the natural charm of your features. But he had to hide his scowl of disapproval as he saw you were in another long skirt. It was flowy and dull. Those pretty legs hidden from his view. His hand digging against the scratch of his facial hair as he glared at the skirt. Half tempted to make a house call and strip every offending cloth out of your wardrobe. His jaw twitching as it clenched tight.
That smile. That sickly sweet smile you always flashed his way. He wondered if youâd smile like that to him after heâs lodged his cock from your bruised throat, cum and spit smearing on those perfect lips. Glossier than any lip balm or lip gloss you insisted to wear. A breathy âthank you, sirâ spilling out with tears making those insistent eyes of yours sparkle. He almost thought he went crazy when he couldnât feel your expectant gaze boring into his skull.
He was much too old to be entertaining a sweet thing like you. Always making sure his boots were polished, his office tidied when he was gone for too many weeks, adding sticky notes to files and color coding each one to make sure they were in perfect order. Treating him to good coffee and pleasant meals. It took everything in him to keep himself glued to his paperwork when you came in and was so kind. So needy. You didnât need a grump like him. A man with too many burdens on his sunken shoulders and blood staining more than his hands.
He tried to dismiss your quirks by giving it no attention. Mutters of disapproval whenever you spent money on him. But it just made you more keen. Trying again and again to get him to say something. To look at you but he knew if he did, he wouldnât be able to stop himself. But now he was finally getting what he wanted? He couldnât help but swallow each bitter grain of his efforts.
His day was long. His team giving him their usual shit but it was giving him a bigger headache than ever. Any bark of demand towards him had his hand clenching in a tight fist behind his back. Most of his paperwork had fallen to you and this time, it was his turn to come into your little space, knocking on the door with a coffee much too sugary for any of his teeth to withstand.
There you were, cramped in your chair with a flood of paperwork looming high to your shoulder. He cleared his throat and you snapped your head up, perking in surprise at his appearance. Wide doe eyes blinking at him as didnât stop at your desk. No, he pressed a big calloused hand to the back of your neck, his thumb caressing the peek of skin between your hair and your shirt collar. Pressing the coffee down as he looked down to see how much youâve done. His breath warm against your ear making your whole body turn to stone.
âatta girl. Thatâs it, love.â John murmured as he gave the back of your neck a small squeeze and stood back up. Leaving you gawking at the door as he left just like that. The warmth of his hand lingering on your skin. A blood that was meant to go to your cheeks oozed down, pouring between your legs as your sex throbbed at the simple praise.
It didn't take long, no, It only took the next day for you to be back in those little pencil skirts and a new blouse that embraced your figure nicely. Heels on your feet signaling your arrival as you leave a fresh mug of coffee on his desk and a small pile of files. All colored and checked, sticky notes paper clipped to each.
One file slipped from the stack making you bend down and scramble it back into your hands giving John a beautiful eyeful of those baby blue panties hugging your ass and a small chub of your sex teasing him as it peered between your thighs. A pleased growl, deep from his chest rumbling out as he took the file from your hand.
âgood girl.â
something about mean old bastard price and his sweet new assistant who just wants his approval so bad but can never seem to get a positive response from him
your sweet gestures, like using your own money to buy him fancy coffee instead of the generic brand on base are only met with an unappreciative grunt followed with, âfuckinâ waste of money. tastes exactly the same.â
barely looks up at you when you drop folders on his desk, only nudges his empty cup towards you. a silent way of commanding you to make yourself useful
until one day when you catch him shameless checking out your ass in the new skirt you bought, his usual grunting response actually seems to be out of approval for once. doesnât even acknowledge your eyes watching him as he rakes his own down your legs before adjusting himself in his trousers and going back to his paperwork
Here's my take on Alien!Ghost from @meowmeowriley 's fic I don't think we're are in space anymore on ao3!
There's a little bit of inspiration from @tactax-art design, which I love very much
A version without the shadows V
Stray dog (Part 2)
Sorry it took me quite long lmao TToTT School and work deadlines are killin' me.
Pairings: Ghost x Soap x Male Reader
Summary: Male Reader is traumatized and refuses to open up to 141. Soap found out something horrible going on with him and told Ghost about it.
Word count: 1910
Warnings: Smoking. Mention of attempts to self-h@rm.
The next morning you woke up with a throbbing headache. It was so bad that you felt like hundreds of needles were jabbed into your eye sockets and every time you blinked, those needles plunged into your brain, sending a sharp and chilling pain to the crown of your head. This was by no means a strange occurrence for you though, given the fact that every night the base celebrated a party you always indulged in this self-sabotaging habit.Â
Still, no matter how bad the situation was, you still had training to attend to, tasks to get done, reports to compile, and a miserable life to live. You turned your head to look at the clock, silently praying that it wasnât too late.Â
It was 13:00 in the afternoon already.Â
âShit!â You threw an arm over your forehead. Nice, you missed the morning training session. It was your responsibility today to train the new recruits and now you messed up the whole Task Forceâs schedule once again just because you could not handle your pathetic emotions properly. The thoughts of giving up flooded your mind yet again since it was no use in waking up anyway, it was too late to do anything useful. The other team members were already aware of how irresponsible you were as you continuously failed to be on time for training the newbies. And what about the newbiesâ impression of you? Probably an unreliable man who was no longer fit to be a member of a special Task Force that was particularly famous for its efficiency. Or maybe you were never fit to be one to begin with.Â
Why didnât the others wake you up? You had worked here long enough to know how scary and irritated Ghost could get when people missed his training session. There were even times when he immediately had the unpunctual soldiers pack their things and get sent to another department because he couldnât fuckinâ stand people disrespecting his schedule.Â
âMaybe they forget about my existence. Maybe I wasnât that big of a part of this Task Force.â You mumbled to yourself, trying to pull your tired body out of the heavy blanket. As much as you wanted to give up, the desire to be important to someone, something, or some organization, âŠjust anything, urged you to wake up and keep trying. You wanted yourself to be seen.
Upon opening the door of your stuffy room, you instinctively covered your eyes as they were attacked by rays of blinding sunlight. Your room was too dark and gloomy, doors and windows tightly shut all day and night, no wonder you would react so unfavorably to the bright sunlight that is often associated with positive moods by most people.Â
The base was unusually quiet. You didnât meet a single soul on your way to the kitchen to fill your hungry stomach. No Soap cracking stupid jokes with his heavy Scottish accent and laughing loudly to them himself, no Gaz cursing at his jokes, no Roach laughing at the two dumb manchildren, no Price sighing and telling them to at least be less raucous. You tried to shrug the nasty nagging feelings off, but it soon became unbearable when you walked into the kitchen and saw all the dirty dishes in the sink.Â
âThey have finished their lunch.â And they had it without you. The people you considered to be your own family, much closer than the biological family that you had cut all contact with, didnât wake you up from your drunken sleep, totally forgot your existence, and enjoyed a meal together like there wasnât anything missing. You knew damn well that you were overexaggerating the seriousness of the situation, but you just couldnât help it.Â
âWhat am I to them?â That question kept spiraling inside your brain, worsening the headache that you were already having. In a brief second, all the nagging feelings were anthropomorphized into a disgusting creature with multiple heads and mouths by your ailed mind, shrilly screaming out your deepest thoughts that were fraught with insecurities. Your legs were rendered weak and you collapsed on the floor. Supporting your weakened body with all four limbs, you took heavy breaths, trying to calm yourself down.
A few minutes later, you managed to put yourself together enough to stand up and get out of the base, on the way you didnât forget to grab a pack of cigarettes. You felt stupid to resort to nicotine as a way to fight against all those feelings, but you didnât know a better way. There were times when things were so bad that you had no energy left to hide your conditions from your teammates, and Price was concerned. He used to have you talk to some therapists, and not surprisingly to you at all, they could not handle you for long. No one ever could.Â
You were now standing in the parking lot with a cigarette in your mouth. You sighed, clearly satisfied with how strongly its bitter taste stimulated your taste buds. When you first arrived here as the newest member of Task Force 141, Soap and Gaz always joked that youâd become Priceâs smoking buddy, but that did not happen. The image of you standing with Price awkwardly because you two couldnât find a mutual topic for a conversation made you feel too uncomfortable to even try, so you kept avoiding the older man or pretending to not hear his offer until he just stopped inviting you. It was so obvious that the men wanted to get closer to you, they wanted to earn your trust, to make you feel at home and be yourself among them, yet you kept pushing them away. And now perhaps they had stopped trying all together. It was not their fault. It was yours.Â
But why it was so painful? You were supposed to feel relieved that they had given up so that you didnât have to blame yourself every time you turned their kind offer down and saw the sadness drawn on their faces. âWhy do I keep feeling like shit no matter what I do?â
Feeling that the intense emotions that were barely suppressed by the nicotine started to get out of hand again, you cupped your head with both hands, the half-burning cigarette fell to the ground. Suddenly, your eyes caught the red burning tip of it, together with how the paper wrapping around the nicotine was slowly burnt to black. At that very moment, a dark but familiar thought popped up in your mind. You bowed down to pick up the cigarette, blankly staring at it resting between the two fingers of your right hand. Then, your eyes turned to your left hand, examining your spotty lower arm. It was full of the small round scars that were caused by burning your arms with the burning tip of a cigarette. You had noticed Ghost looked at these scars of yours many times; luckily he never asked about them. The army was a place filled with people who had different background stories and bore numerous scars, so it wouldnât be abnormal for you to have some that were a bit funny-shaped.
âShould I do this again?âÂ
Maybe you should. It helped with the emotions. Well, temporarily, but that was good enough.
Just as you were about to press the burning tip into your lower left arm, someone threw their whole weight into you. You were hugged by two strong arms and the cigarette was again dropped to the ground.
âThere you are! Iâve been finding you everywhere!â It was the Scot man. âAre you smoking? Gosh, I hate this smell! Priceâs cigars are much better!â
âThe ones that smell good are never bitter enough.â You thought to yourself.
âHave you had lunch, pretty boy?â Soap pinched your dumbfounded face.
âNot yet.â
âWhat? Unbelievable! Get to the kitchen with me right now, Sergeant.â The man literally manhandled you straight from the parking lot into the base, leaving you no time to object.
As you two arrived at your destination, Ghost was already sitting there, sipping some coffee. Soap forced you to sit down right next to him while he proceeded to walk to the fridge and pulled out a dish, putting it inside the microwave oven.Â
âHere you are, babyboy~â He put the hot meal in front of you. You chose to ignore the pet name and his flirtatious voice simply because he had started doing it to you ever since you start working here. It was just one of his signature thing, you should not fall for it and mistake it as a sign of interest that could develop into romantic feelings.Â
âThanks, Soap.â
âAw, donât be so all worked up and formal, babyboy. Yaâ welcome~â
Silence fell over the three of you, until you just felt so awkward that you had to speak up, âSo⊠how was this morning?â
âIt was fine. Ghost stepped in your place and took care of the training.â Soap replied.
You carefully glanced at Ghost, just to find that the man already looked at you, which made you tremble slightly. The skull mask on his face made him too difficult to read, you couldnât tell whether he was annoyed or he just gave up on expecting something greater from you.Â
Soap laughed at your reactions, âItâs okay. You were drunk so Price agreed to let you sleep. Also, Ghost volunteered to help you with the training so he probably doesnât hold a grudge. Am I right, Ghostie?â
The masked man didnât answer; instead, he turned back to his cup of coffee.
You quickly finished your meal and left, saying that you should do training by yourself. The truth was you couldnât stay there any longer, you didnât want to disturb Ghost and Soapâs rare peaceful time together. You had already made too terrible an impression on Ghost, itâs best that you did not mess up again. As a result, you also missed their conversation. It was not intended for you to listen to anyway.
âYouâre right. He did it.â Soapâs voice was solemn, with no sign of flirt or unseriousness like a few minutes before.
âYou mean the scars?â Ghost looked up at him from the cup.
âYeah, the round scar marks that youâve told me many times.â
âIt was just my guess. How do you know he really did it?â
âI found him in the parking lot. He was holding a burning cigarette and about to press it into his left arm.âÂ
A few minutes of silence passed until Ghost spoke up, âFuckinâ hell.â
âI asked Price about his past, I know itâs a nosy thing to do, but I wanted to help. Unfortunately, Price knows nothing either. Y/n⊠the boy never opens up to us.â
The two men sat quietly, exchanging worried looks with each other. If only you could know how much they cared for you, maybe you would find it easier to accept their love and help. Yet, even if they told you, even if they desperately showed you so many times that they cared and loved you so much, would your brain allow your heart to welcome them just like how it used to welcome other people you had met earlier in your life, the ones who left you wounded and made you the way you were today?Â
If someone asked you that question, youâd just offer them a weak smile and simply say: âNoâ. You're now too tired to hold on to any crumbles of hope left in your broken soul. You'd like to give up.
to be continued i guess :")
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Saw this and absolutely cackled
Gaming with Soap would go like this đ
-Bell and Adler arguing-
Gremlin bell oc
I love them okay
Another one gift for @maxinkress for New Year (ha-ha I really should've been posted it a bit early but I just forget about existence of this gift lmao) It was the first time I was drawing Ghost (I even can't find a good reference with him ah) but it turned out not so bad (is it???well I hope so!) I'm not good in such a themes. really, but I tried to do my best for my dear friend so here we are
And I also love how just lineart looks like so I wanna share it too.
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