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When you live at the circus ~ b.c

Written by @chqnverse ♡

inspired by "carousel " by melanie martinez

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you didn't knew anything else than life at the circus with animals, you where the tightrope walker at the circus :: dancing on a smal rope day in and out ending your day falling in the smal bed together with your best friend. he was mostly dancing or singing he loved it you both did. your parents let you grow up together. every once a month people came to cheer on you and your best friend performance together. but recently you grew tired of it, tired of dancing or walking on a rope high up in the air but you couldn't tell that anyone not even chan your best friend because you saw how much fun he had singing for people so you keept your mouth shut.

tomorrow was a big show with more people than usually... you weren't nervous you had done that a million times. chan was worried everytime he saw you walking on that thin rope without any safety to catch you if you fall... 'y/n are you sure you don't want to dance on the floor? it would be much safer and-' you pulled up the dress over your corset shaking your head. 'felix we talked about this' you did you told him many times that it was easy for you like riding a bicycle but he was never satisfied so he hums like always. 'could you close my corset please?' you asked softly making him smile at you and do as asked. you already heard the loud voices talking. 'you gonna sing or dance today' you mumbled watching him pull the ropes of the corset 'dance with felix and minho..' he said making a bow at the end. you turn around looking at his hazel eyes 'good luck channie'.

chan looks at you you looked damm gorgeous, your curled up hair bouncing up and down as you walked away for him, glittet make up on your face over your eyelids some glitter stones making them shine in the light.

you looked like a princess to him. he was wearing a white outfit that looked burned one some parts a chain decorating his belly (sorry couldn't resist choosing that outfit ) he looked at the mirror before leaving the little room he heard people scream your name he looked at the rope there you stood in the middle of it legs spread sitting on the rope. he watched you making stunts he knew them all. as you stood on the rope and bowed towards the people you suddenly lost balance feeling nauseous seeing dots in front of your eyes. chan's mouth fell open in a gasp the people mirror his expression. the director ran towards your body on the floor.

┊✧*🩰｡°࿐ 5 Months later....

you where sitting on the bed your right feet wrapped up in a bandage. since you feel down chan didn't even let you anywhere near the rope saying that you are ' still not healed y/n' you slowly where getting angry one day it all becomes to much when you went on the rope without anyone's knowing. chan saw you slowly walking in the middle as you came down his expression told you that he wasn't pleased at all. 'y/n' his tone was warning 'didn't I told you not to go up there until you are healed?' you look at the sand covered floor. 'I'm sorr-' chan just shakes his head 'no you are not y/n you shouldn't risk you life just to hear people call your again' he said eyes never leaving you 'you will stay away from that rope until the doctor confirmed that your healed' your eyes widened 'you are not my father chan you can't keep me away from doing what I love ...' chan took your hand 'this is not how it works y/n' he wanted to pull you towards your dressing room.

'then how does it work chan huh tell me? do you like the thought of never seeing the world only dancing for peoples amusement? never getting to feel someone's love because the rules are set like this?' your voice full of anger and pain. it was true chan deeply wishes he could love one person but he couldn't it was against the rules...don't fall in love with someone you work with... his mind hates the rule. he deeply wishes he could tell you how much he loves you since you where kids. 'y/n do you think I don't know this? they will punish us for not following the rules and you are risking that..do you want them to punch and slap you? I don't so you are not going near this fuc*ing rope again' you wince at the raising tone of his voice. 'chan I - I don't think' chan chuckled 'you never do y/n do even know how much I love you-' your mind races he said he loved you. chan loved you, your body moved before you could think straight you hugged him tight stopping his rant. 'I love you too...' you whispered again his chest.

for a moment chan stops and wrapped his arms protectively around you he tryed to breath in every second he had like this, the way your scent enveloped him like flowers, the way your eyes are closed hiding the beautiful y/e/c eyes he loved so much. your hair tied up in a messy bun be loved so much. 'y/n...you know we can't-' chan tryed to say but you quickly interrupted him 'let's run away...far away...and start new just you and me' chan pulls away with wide eyes 'are you insane our money will never be enough for that' you shrugged. he pulls away and you immediately miss his warmth and closeness. 'I am going' you said confidently starting to walk away from him your leg hurting a bit. chan's eves began to water 'your gonna leave me?'. he asked voice shaking. 'you can always follow me channie' you smiled over his shoulder. 'come with me?' you said voice full of hope. chan studies you and slowly shakes his head.

'I can't y/n...I can't just leave and pretend this never happened the money wouldn't be enough and we couldn't even life somewhere' your eyes showed everything you didn't speak out loud sadness mostly present.

'well I guess this is a goodbye then chan... see you some time again' you waved him making him want to run towards you and hold you for ever but he held himself back. he couldn't just leave. his heart was screaming at him to stop you but his brain told him to let you go and move on.

...will he ever see you again?...

Nini

Jeongin x Reader

Y/n POV:

I opened the Door for My husband Cuz He carried out 3 Weeks old Babygirl. Jeongin walked inside into the living room I followed him.He sat down Minnie still in his arms sucking on her Milk botle and I sat down beside him.

Jeongins Mom came in wir our 3 Year old son Jiwoo on her hip „How is our New baby?“ She asked exited Jeongin looked up to his mother „She is better now“ (When Minnie was born she had a few Brathing Problems to make sure she is fine we hat to stay 2 more weeks in the hospital) „Can I hold her ?“Jeongins mother said exited and I nod „Of course„ she put Jiwoo down and he runs directly towards me „Mommy I missed you“ I shushed him „Shh Jiwoo Your sister is sleepin but I missed my Big boy too“ Jiwoo kissed your Cheek.

Jeongins Mom looked at us “She is soo cute and looks like a Mix out of you both...Aww“she said as Minnie began to cry.She passed Minnie back to Jeongin “I think she is tired after Eating I will bring her To bed“ I nod and Jeongin gave our son kisses before going to Minnies Room.Jiwoo pouts And stood up from my lap and walked away from me while throwing his toy out of his hand I looked at him in shook he never threw his toys away. I let him be cuz I thought he was tired so I got Up and get me something to drink.

After 5 Minutes I walked too Jiwoos room on the hallway I could hear Jeongin singing. And I smiled and opened the Door From jiwoos bedroom but he wasn’t there i began to panick and began to search for him as I heard smal cries coming from the Bathroom.I opened the door and looked inside.There was Jiwoo stand war the toilet with a red face and tears all over his little face.”Jiwoo Baby why are you crying“i looked inside the toilet to look why my son was staring at our Toilet.Inside the toilet was his favorite Fox plushier that Jeongin gave him for His 1 birthday “Baby why is Nini in the toilet?” Jiwoo looked up at you and flushed the toilet “JIWOO“ you looked shocked at your son and a few seconds later Jeongin came in “What happened?” He looks at you and then at Jiwoo who just looked at the floor “Jiwoo flushed Nini down the toilet“ Jeongin looks backs at Jiwoo “Jiwoo why did you flush Nini down the toilet?” He said sitting down infront of Jiwoo “You Gave all you attention to Minnie and M-Mommy didnt call me her baby anymore and Appa didn’t gave me cuddles but I-I missed you while you where at the hospital“ he said between Hiccups and Jeongin pulled his son into his arms “I am sorry But Minnie needs some attention too now that you have a Sister you need to share the attention“ he said hugging Jiwoo and I kneel down “I am sorry Baby I thought you like being called a Big boy“ Jiwoo sniffles and nods.

Jeongin stood up from the floor and walked into the living room while jiwoo was still crying on his Dads shoulder and I follow him. After a while Jiwoo came down and we talked to him while he asked questions about Minnies birth and how it was suddenly he began to cry And Jeongin looks at him worried “Hey Woo why are you cryin?” Jiwoo continues crying “I-I want N-Nini...“ I looked at Jeongin

”Honey why don’t you bring Nini back while Me and Jiwoo begin to cook dinner?”

Jeongin sights “Of course“

while you kissed his lips and Giggle as you watched him walking to the bathroom.