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"hormonal"
when I have birthed a child,
when I have slaved away
my time and tears,
dimes and fears,
I hope they never say
that my worth is complete.
my life, obsolete.
I swear it, my
time and tears,
dimes and fears
are not an investment put to play.
I may grow stretch marks and pimples,
may sag in places unseen.
but if past a birth, that word is thrown out-
know that my call for your respect
has always been a thing.
nothing like a little silent hill 3 soundtrack to kick off a foggy morning in good ol texas
Was Kenyan a Bad Mum?
I was thinking about Ethan’s childhood and how chaotic it was. He was spoiled, could do almost everything he wanted, he had everything he asked, he questioned every concept, he was a smart ass at school…
And you ask, “why”? Because Kenyan taught him to be like this, of course. Her idea of motherhood was different from the normal; she raised Ethan as a person, not just a kid. This is why she afforded his desires, wishes, and demands—because she wanted him to live at max capacity while he didn’t have responsibilities and huge consequences to care about.
Then you think, “wow, this is wrong. This kid will grow to be a spoiled adult, thinking life works exactly as he wants; then when things go bad, he will get mad and won’t know how to fix it.”
But if we look through Kenyan’s POV, we can understand why she’d think this is okay.
Let’s check her life stage:
As you can see, Auvies take their time to do things in life; maturity and independence comes around at 40 years old. At the age she got pregnant, she was supposed to start thinking about her future and what she wanted to try (in studies and work). She was a princess, so it was half decided, but she still would need to think about what kind of authority she’d be in the future.
But then she skipped (not by her choice) 100 years of her life, had to run away (she was a sacred figure, pregnancy out of marriage wouldn’t sound good…), started a life from scratch in a strange place, had no support, and all of it with a hyperactive kid. It’s clear she wouldn’t know how to raise a child in this situation.
And her maturity wasn’t that different of a child, so she was deeply empathetic of Ethan. If he asked for something, she’d give it to him because she thought “I also wanted to have things when I was a kid, so it's only fair I give it to him”, or even “he will just have me, so I should be a thousand times better than a normal mother, and to be a better mother, I should do this and that”.
There's also her culture.
Until 12 years old, Auvies have all the right to be curious and innocent, exploring the world and not dealing with consequences. The parents should allow it, only being careful about really dangerous actions; in this case, the parents should be present to instruct, but they still couldn’t forbid the kid from doing what they want.
Ethan was at this stage, so Kenyan just followed what she knew. But, for being on Earth and hearing advice all the time about how to raise him, she started allowing consequences on Ethan’s life, so he’d know what to do and what to avoid. (Example: he can climb the tree, but if he gets afraid of heights or gets stuck, Kenyan wouldn’t save him—she’d teach him how to get down. At the end, he would know it’s not a good idea to climb again because it’s scary, but if he ever need to climb down again, he wouldn’t be powerless)
So, we can conclude that Kenyan did a great job at raising Ethan! She could have done better? Probably. But she did what she could as a solo-teen-Auvie mother raising a child.
Unfortunately, we won’t know how she would raise a teen.
She didn’t stay long enough.
Studying Art
I’ll have some free time nowadays (supposedly) so I’ll try to “study” one old drawing per day. At first, it’ll be more of a tracing by eye (I dunno the right term), but I want to learn realism to make more drawings of Kenyan/Maivtre 😗❤️
Lukai vonako Nimaba
"Protect your family"
That's making my heart warm ❤️❤️ I guess it's the first time I drawn them happy— IT'S SO CUTE 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️
That's Kenyan and Ethan when he was 8-10. She had left Martra to raise Ethan on Earth when he was a baby, so he has no idea that Martra exists.
To fit in, she's using magic to disguise her ears (some people can see its true shape if not looking directly at her/side-eye), hiding Ethan's ears with his hair and painting his hair brown. She didn't paint her hair cuz on Earth adults can paint hair, young children not.
It's sad that I can't explain every single detail, but all of them have a meaning ❤️ if you’re curious, you can guess their meanings based on what I already posted, or you can ask me; I’ll be glad to explain :)
Killing Stalking - Spoilers
The saddest part about Killing Stalking is that until and even after the end of the story, nobody were able to understand exactly through what kind of pain and torture the both main characters [ Bum and Sangwoo] went when they were kids. Nobody from Killing Stalking universe was able to understand what type of torture Bum endured as a child [ except from Sangwoo who unfortunately was too damaged himself to be able to help Bum even just a little ]. Nobody from the Killing Stalking universe was able to found out that Sangwoo actually didn't kill his own parents and that he was also a victim [ which, of course, doesn't justify him in any way because a lot of people go through even worse kind of situations as childrens and still develop a kind type of personality, but is something important which we don't have to forget ].
If they were able to talk with someone about all of this, if someone was there to help them when they were too little and scared to do it themselves, if Sangwoo's parents didn't become a couple in the fisrt place when they weren't ready for it, if Sangwoo's mother just didn't become a mother at all, if Bum's parents were alive, if his uncle wasn't in his life at all, if just the world and society they lived in were kinder and more understandable,...then damn it, everything would be different. They both wouldn't end up the way they did....
I think the exact same thing can be said about the modern society we live in. Just think about how many times you, yourself, or someone else you know or just heard about became a victim of injustice, abuse, betray, bullying, and so on....
Until when the world we are part of will be like this? Until when the human society will work in this not beneficial for any individual way??
…I want to just draw a fashion zine of just Miss Piggy, oh my god. she is so underrated and underutilized, where is my succession-like muppets satire thing LOL I want it so bad. let me do it disney call me pls
The mother of all mothers
Drew up the main 3 boys. My first time drawing them.
Wilfrod Warfstache
I love how his mustache is slowly turning pink
BRUH
MY MOTHER JUST DESCRIBED THE TRY GUYS AS
The little one
The hairy one
The hot gay Asian one
Keith
