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★ Aatamixx, the Echoflower System's Introduction 💫🪻
Hello, welcome to my blog, I'm Aatami (AKA Mishka or Snep)! Well, that's just collectively speaking. If you're talking about the whole system, you can call me (us) the Echoflower System. My collective pronouns are he/him, but kit/kitself, nya/nyaself, and star/starself are all good too. I'm pretty new to Tumblr (well I had a blog in like 2020, but I've forgotten basically everything about it… also I use parentheses way too much, gosh), but I plan to use this blog as a sort of archive for all the xenogenders I've coined, as well as getting into the MOGAI and plural communities on here. I hope I can find my people on this website. /lh
(This post will be periodically edited as things about myself change, of course.)
★ So Now That I Know This Aatami, Where Can I Find Him? ★
In case you had it in you for even more rambling, you can check out my about me literature on Toyhouse (I use it like a Carrd). More things are already linked there, so I don't need to re-add them all here. I also use the account that it's posted under for posting the occasional bulletin (and storing my original characters, but those are all private and will remain as such for the foreseeable future).
★ Small Facts About the System ★
(Switching to using plural language for this was a little jarring lawl, I'm very much used to referring to myself singularly.)
★ We have OSDD-1B (recognized by our psychologist, but unable to be officially diagnosed due to not being disordered — we've achieved functional multiplicity, surprisingly enough) and are of mixed traumagenic origins
★ We are an aceplex
★ We're a theriosystem
★ We are very male- / masculine-heavy, due to our gender dysphoria affecting everyone
★ Because we're so male-heavy, we default to using he/him instead of they/them when referring to an unspecified alter or one whose gender identity is unknown
★ We're also somewhat angel-heavy
★ Due to our maladaptive daydreaming, our system has countless paracosms (the most active ones of which being the worlds our original stories are set in, as well as our fandoms, especially ones we're hyperfixating on)
★ Our headspace is exclusively set in our daydreams, and is not something that's just there in the background — it has to be consciously visualized and visited (or well, accidentally while zoning out)
★ We are a dreamway system of sorts, but I should mention that we don't experience walk-ins and pretty much none of our alters are paragenic
★ Our alters almost never interact in the headspace, but they can use things like the Simply Plural chat and get a conversation going if need be
★ Alter Signoff Chart ★
(I originally planned to list their roles here too, but I ended up deciding against it, since I'm unsure of what some of their purposes are and uncomfortable with sharing a few others.)
★ The Hosts ★
⚡️💙 = Fritz ★ He/Kit/Spark
🌈🌺 = Sindri ★ He/Kit/Meow/Nya/Star/.Exe
🌀🎧 = Samuel ★ He/Him
❄️🌙 = Mikko ★ He/They/Kit/Nya/Snow/Star
★ Alfred's Subsystem ★
🐾🩸 = Alfred ★ He/Him
🐾🚬 = Ekkehard (Eike) ★ He/Him
🐾🤍 = Kelso ★ He/Him
🐾✨ = Aleksi ★ He/They/Pup
🐾🎀 = Salem ★ She/He/They/Pup
★ Everyone Else ★
☀️🥀 = Akatsuki ★ He/Kit
❓❗️= Alois ★ He/Him
🌻💛 = Asriel ★ He/They
🌹👑 = August ★ He/They
🐦⬛🌙 = Corbin ★ He/Him
🔪🚬 = Dylan ★ He/Him
🐈⬛💜 = Ender ★ Xae/They/He/Kit
📘⭐️ = Felix ★ He/They
🌊🦈 = Finnley ★ He/They
🪽🏹 = Gabriel ★ They/He
🪖🔪 = Ivan ★ He/Him
🐛🌈 = Jeremy ★ He/Him
🍪💖 = Katsumi / Sabrina ★ She/They/He/Kit/Meow/Mew/Nya
🐺🩸 = Lavrentiy ★ He/Him
🌿⚔️ = Malachi ★ He/Him
🍌🦮 = Nanner (trying to think of a new name for himself) ★ He/She/They/Pup
🌐🖥️ = Prototype (trying to think of a new name for himself) ★ He/Him
🥀🗡️ = Reinhard ★ He/Him
🪐🌌 = Saturn ★ He/They/Pup/Star
🎸🧡 = Shalva ★ He/Him
🎀🐇 = Sylvan ★ He/They/Bun
🪳🩸 = Vermin ★ They/He
🗝️🩸 = (Currently undecided on a name for himself, very recently discovered.) ★ He/Him
if i postpone my oncoming crisis enough i could avert it with the fifth mainia episode this week :D
Splatoon
Smg4
Kirby
Politics
My Splatoon AU
I saw this meme going around on twitter and I think it'll be perfect for this account.
List 5 topics you can talk on for an hour without preparing any material.
Update
Sorry that I'm late, apparently I have the type of ADHD that's not the hyperactive one, I forgot the name though, which is kind of ironic. Anyways, hope you have a great day and stay awesome.
Add another minority to the list babyyyyyy
Update
I'm in the office right now I'll be back when it's over.
the neurodivergent experience:
20% of the time: wowwieee!!! i love my passions and interests!!!!! they make me so happy i want to jump up and down!!!!! weee!!!!!!! :3333333333
80% of the time: this mind is a prison
I love rediscovering my old interests bc I already know stuff about it but I get to learn/remember them again and fall in love with them on a deeper level
Why does ADHD have to be so hard?
I just wish I could study without chronic procrastination!
Or get myself up in the mornings without assistance.
Or have people understand that ADHD isn't just "quirky little gal" disorder.
It's funny, I get kind of surprised when my diagnosed disability disables me-
I saw a post saying that stimulants for ADHD are life saving medications because they reduce car crashes and while stimulants are very important for people with ADHD they just... aren't life saving.
some medications you will die without. stimulants for ADHD are not on that list.
when other disabled people talk about life saving medication we don't just mean "very important" we mean "life saving"
I would die of organ failure caused by inflammation from lupus if I didn't have my biologic. diabetics would die of diabetic ketoacidosis without insulin. people with asthma would suffocate to death without their inhalers. that is what it means to have a life saving medication.
you can emphasize the importance of a medication without comparing it to truly life saving medications. it just comes across really insensitive when you compare lower risk of car crashes to guaranteed death without a medication
like, the shortage of stimulants is absolutely detrimental to people with ADHD but it's not comparable to a shortage of a life saving medication. without a stimulant people with ADHD would still live, without insulin diabetics would die. when stimulant prices are inflated and people can't access them it is hard but it does not equate to death. when people with life threatening autoimmune diseases can't afford their medication it does equate to death.
if you want to talk about the importance of stimulants for people with ADHD and the negative effects of the shortage that's great! but refer to the medication correctly- it's life changing, it's not life saving
Oh, boy, oh, boy, oh, boy. Look at this RSD induced ADD symptoms because it’s hitting home for me.
I've noticed something...
There doesn’t seem to be any lists of ADHD studyblrs out there, and I’ve had some people ask me if I know of any. So I’ve decided to create a list of all ADHD studyblrs! Along with a list of blogs that are help and give advice on coping with ADHD. This list is just the ones I know of, so if you have one and are not on this list please reblog it with your studyblr!
ADHD STUDYBLRS: @adhdstudying @adhdstudy @adhdstudyblr @adhdscholar @studyadhd @adhdstudytips @finally-a-realistic-studyblr (me!!)
ADHD BLOGS: @actuallyadhd @adultadhdlifehacks @attentiondeficithyperactivedude @hey-look-a-squirrel @lifewithadhd @mentalillnessmouse (not ADHD specific but still a good resource to find help for coping with ADHD) @adhd-community @adhighdefinition @adhd-is
Again I’m sure there are way more blogs than the ones I listed, so if you have one please reblog this!!
Ranking the NPMD kids on how much and how well I think they mask.
Pete: can mask if absolutely necessary and is pretty good at it, immediately needs time to recharge, main person to handle social situations Him, Ruth, & Richie run into.
Richie: Cannot mask to save his life, doesn’t try to.
Ruth: Cannot mask to save her life, does try to.
Grace: Has been masking severely since she was young it’s so tightly glued to her face she can’t take it off, doesn’t consciously recognize she’s masking, definitely undiagnosed.
Max: Masks any “uncool” interests, mainly masks around his dad, probably undiagnosed.
Steph: Masks alright, mainly masks around the other popular kids, does it subconsciously, maybe undiagnosed.
"TV show about kid who is 100% neurodivergent that got canceled too soon but gained a cult following years later" starterpack
Cara
Misture Autismo+TDAH+Crise de sexualidade+Pressão arterial baixa+Anemia+Pobreza+Arte+Fase de depressão(majoritariamente superada)+Fase de Iniciativas Suicidas(majoritariamente superada)+Leve mudez devido a uma lesão na garganta (cortesia de uma corda e uma iniciativa suicida)/Recorrência a mudez seletiva devido a traumas e então você me terá:
(translation)
Dude
Mix Autism+ADHD+Sexuality crisis+Low blood pressure+Anemia+Poverty+Art+Phase of depression(mostly completely overcome)+Phase of suicidal initiatives(mostly completely overcome)+Light muteness due to a throat injury (courtesy of a rope and a suicidal initiative)/Recurrence of selective muteness due to traumas and then you have me:
"It's okay, angel"
*sends audio*
"Fuck-"
"I forgot for a moment that I am mute"
"And I'm wearing headphones"
Because of my executive dysfunction, I have to treat every difficult task as a life of death situation If I want anything done. So when I end up failing the task, Or not doing it anyway; It feels like dying a little. I used to grin and bear it, but lately I’m wondering How much of me Is still left Before I’m completely Gone
self discipline is so hard like. i know the sucker who's in charge...a pushover who hates authority and loves hedonism
every morning i wake up and make the worst possible time management decisions anyone has ever made
Etudier
Avant, étudier c’était pour faire briller des étoiles dans les yeux des adultes. C’était pour faire croire que j’étais quelqu’un de bien, de digne d’intérêt. C’était facile, c’était un jeu, je me racontais des histoires, ce en quoi j’excellais, on disait tu iras loin, et j’étais persuadée que c’était vrai. Longtemps, étudier a été une échappatoire, une fierté, un moteur d’ambition, quelque chose que j’aimais.
J’écrivais mes dictées comme des lettres d’amour. Je récitais l’alphabet comme un poème. Etudier valait la peine.
Aujourd’hui, maintenant que je suis adulte (qu’il est laid, ce mot, qu’il est écrasant), étudier est un mot qui me tord le ventre. Ce sont sept lettres comme une menace irrationnelle, sept lettres en moi qui font résonner les pierres. Pour mes études j’ai créé des échos qui font rouler des graviers dans ma gorge et me lacèrent de l’intérieur, l’angoisse en est devenue physique, et moi je suis : incontrôlable. J’ai des coups de sang, des crises de larmes, des rages infantiles. Je me noie entre mes fiches et mes listes interminables.
Il faut croire que même les études réveillent des monstres. Je suis terrifiée : de rater ma vie, de ne rien valoir, de me battre sans savoir pourquoi. Je suis terrifiée de poursuivre dans cette voie et de me rendre compte dans trente ans que ce n’était pas la mienne, que voilà, je me suis trompée, et que j’ai passé toute une vie à satisfaire des désirs qui n’étaient jamais les miens. C’est que je ne suis pas faite pour choisir, je n’ai pas de voie, non ; je suis mouvante et incapable de faire le deuil des possibles.
Je ne sais pas me définir sans ma quête de perfection, mes ambitions démesurées, mes exigences tyranniques. Je ne suis pas : sociable, jolie, intéressante, drôle, désirable. Alors je ne sais pas qui je suis si je ne parviens pas à réussir. C’est tout ce qu’il me reste. Je ne sais rien faire d’autre que cela, répondre à des exigences académiques, rentrer dans la norme, avoir un parcours sans accrocs.
Pour la première fois, étudier n’est pas facile. Peut-être que je n’irai pas si loin. Peut-être a-t-on placé en moi trop d’espoirs, trop d’attentes : des étouffements. J’ai l’impression que je n’ai jamais grandi, que j’ai fait semblant. Comment se faire à l’idée de décevoir ?
I was gonna say "Me during quarantine", but let's be real, it's me all the time
hey neurodivergents have u ever doubted ur neurodivergence? like hey what if im overreacting about this neurodivergent shit what if im neurotypical and faking it
No means no in any situation. I wish people would stop assuming and crossing boundaries because of what comfort looks like to them.
pls pls pls pls plsss respect when people don't want to be touched. that goes for family too.
me: I need to do my home work at 8
me: I need to do my home work at 8
me: I need to do my home work at 8
*8 passes*
me: . . .
me: I need to do my home work at 9