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pulling back baggy pants and seeing how small you are >>>>>>>

atp im finna need a non-p3d0 coach becuase ive been having SUCH bad binge episodes its not even funny anymore

How long have you been pvrg1ng?How often? What did you come to? What triggered you todo so?

Do you remember how was your first time?

I honestly cant remember, but I’d estimate about 2 or so months. My first time pvrg1ng was really weird, and felt disgusting af. But I got over it because ive intentionally thrown up b4 to get home from skl.

what triggered my pvrg3 was a really bad binge and I felt such immense guilt I couldnt bear it. And after that I started doing it way more often because I felt so empty and even lost weight after pvrg1ng

sighs in im sick of binging, purging, binging, chilling, purging, and then chilling all day. I can still Taste the throw up in my throat. Yuck.

The BIGGEST motivator i currently have is the fact that my bio-mom used to be a MODEL!? You (unfortunately) can’t find her on the internet.

I just binged. fvcking two bread pieces with Nutella, a piece of cake, and juice. Oh my gosh. I’m gonna kms. (It’s like 2k+ calories all together btw.)

tip for people who are fasting !! if you can drink water i highly reccomend adding lemon and cucumber slices!! it gives the water a sweet taste,

a SINGLE crumb or two of (bland) rice cake entered my stomach because my father forced me to eat SOMETHING and now I feel like shit! Like I know it’s less then 4 calories for a crumb or two but still..

yesterday morning i was making a healthy low cal breakfest (like 140 calories) and my dad praised me and even took a picture of me...i have never been happier, like yessss, unkowingly support my ed!!!

craving frozen grapes cs i (personally) think they taste like ice cream but im sick so my dad wont let me have cold food 💔

im like 99% sure im sick and have been feeling like shit so i got to go home early at like 12 something am, i binged like crazy and i feel 20x worse but i can at least ⭐rve myself since my parents r gunna think its only cs im sick..

despretely in need of an almond mom, i geniunely cant do this shit alone i swear

this drawing i drew in my journal a few days ago is my ultimate th1nspo

Guys what the hell i just weighed myself for the first time in months and i gained, i refuse to let myself go over 50kg - i’m 48.7 rn. I’m gonna start fasting more often and restricting, starting today. i need to stop making excuses and putting this stuff off, so starting today i’m doing a 30h f@st. wish me luck guys😭🙏

reminder that next month is

skinny september

dont give up, don’t let yourself lose control, discipline yourself, and you can be the version of yourself you’ve always wanted to be.

i can’t fathom how some of my friends weigh sm more than me and still look way skinnier like?? teach me your ways plz??

Reasons to not give up💕

imagine how jealous people will be once you’re at your gw

you could end up being someone’s thinspo

you’ll be able to wear baggy clothes and be tiny in them

being able to wear warm sweaters/pants in winter without feeling big, sweaty, and gross

having people joke about how small and fragile you look

gotta lock tf in for 4n4 august

ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ TH3 P0W3RPUFF GIRL5 D!3T

rules* srry

I got so depressed checking my w3ight 2 days ago I dropped 2 kgz ☀️

finally made it into 3dtok you guys 💪☀️

tips for hiding an4 from your family? ☀️

what would I be without di3t coke ?☀️

i miss june 24 when 100kc4lz felt too much, now i completly lost track of restr1cti°ns ☀️

I admire b!itches with an0r3r!@ athl3t1c4 cuz wdym you have the strength and motivation to manage both your restr!cti0n results and your gym results ☀️

i bought new jeans and they make my legs look so much skinnier ☀️

not saying no to the Starbucks employee and ending up eating too much cuz anyway how could you refuse a pumpkin spice donut??? 💀☀️

Not me going on 3dblR the second I exit the call with my psychiatrist that I spent 1h gaslighting into thinking my "mother" made up my 3d cuz she really wants me to have one (which isn't completely fake, she just wishes I had an "easier" 3d to instrumentalize)☀️

a little late but yeah im locked in for this october ☀️🎃