I’m No Therapist Or Anything. I Can’t Fix What’s Making You Sad. I Can Offer Hot Chocolate And

I've been starting to actually feel bored. My brain can't really even maladaptive daydream anymore, so my brain is just empty, nothing to look forward to, literally nothing. Except my death in like 80 years (I hope my parents live long), just waiting to wait and hurt more.

Is this too much to ask for???

My brains is so funny cause it sees me in worlds not real, but struggles to acknowledge me in this one.

Just did my first cut of uni. Now I'm gonna play farm frenzy whilst trying to not burst back into tears. Hopefully I'll be stable enough to call my dad back after a few games.

I feel like I'm one gained kg away from taking an hammer to my Jaw so I couldn't eat solid foods again.

I hate how my ridiculous obsession with him makes me feel such hatred towards a girl that has done nothing to me. My eyes glazed over her and my mind started automatically fantasizing about killing her. Seeing the fear in her eyes. Even when it wont being me closer to him a part of me would see it as a win, I hate that.

The urge of having a subby buff boy to dom and take care of is returning guys 😩😩. They're just so cute (even better if they're a yandere too) akkdjdofncb

I'm definitely not talking about toji

It's so weird feeling that you have a lot of love to give, but feeling as if you have no one to give that specific love to. Yes I have loved ones that that love me, that I keep living for really. But it's no the same.

And at the same time my mind just yearns to have someone to obsess over.

Not a want but a need

What if you worshipped me? What if you dedicated everything you do to my name? Would you do anything I ask? Would I still be your princess, or will I become your goddess?

Sometimes I just want a loyal follower ♡.

Because of my constant eating during binges and times where i simply was overeating my tooth enamel is completely damaged. And that can nor will never be restored.

My dentist straight up told me I have damaged it already so from now on if I don't stick with very strict, regular meals my teeth will be easily and quickly rittled with holes. But if I haven't been able to do that so far, no matter what. So now I'll just have teeth full of holes, feel constant pain and spend god knows how much trying to keep fixing em to escape atleast some of the pain. Just rip all my teeth out so I could not ruin them further and not chew at all.

I'm just feel sad and devastated. That shit by the age of 19. And for what? Nothing positive or anyhting of resemblance to even show for the years of straight up food addiction.